~~ wanderer by nature ~~

it feels like trainee waiting to debut~

2012-01-26T23:00:00.000+09:00

lol~
nah...acc to k-standard, i'm probably too obese and f-ugly to debut~ *sad reality*
but it certainly feels like one~
i can't say what i'm doing yet~ it feels like trainee waiting to debut~

Kim Jaejoong~
Happy birthday oppar *insert heart*

how i wish i can see joongie before his enlistment~ i won't step my foot on kimchiland until next year?
btw, if i live in goshiwon will i meet Song Yoohyun?
my Song Yoohyun, non eodiya~

ijou~

nothing much~

2012-01-24T06:00:00.000+09:00

Blood Type B, enjoyable optimist

Optimist who enjoys life. (live as if you die today~♪)
You can even laugh facing your failure. (there's tonnes of example here. . .)
Having a romantic tendency, you sometimes have thoughts distant from reality. (Namu Hyun, fan = yeochin *tsk* he even said he was married~ ~~cheesiness with no fail~~~)
But if you enjoy liberal life way too much, you might make enemies unexpectedly. (they just suddenly pop put like zits~)
You should change your easy-to-give-up personality. (eotthae~?)
You should think over whether you give up way too fast…(=.=;)

actually i just wanna talk about Namstar~ kyaaa and his upgraded version of heart throwing~
i think a big portion of his mind is dedicated to fanservice and ~~wife~~ fan training. . .

i-to-the-jou~

まだ世間しらずなガキです pt II

2012-01-20T22:16:00.000+09:00

if you're not ryotan's fans, not japanese, or whatever...
it means 'still a kid who doesn't understand this world'
though original line is 'a kid who doesn't understand this world~ ' (dayum~ i like this line~)

today i wanna talk about peaceful assembly that ain't peaceful at all~
and extremist people who seems very ignorant~

since i'm not gay, i don't know how it's like to be one but nevertheless, there's a lot of documentaries out there (have u heard about transsexual kids? how the heck these kids get 'influenced' to become gay when they had a normal family? there must be something in the gene or whatever...if doesn't exist in you doesn't mean it doesn't exist at all~) . . .
this is for those who go against gay marriage seeing it as an extinction of human population (bs~!) there are more kids starving to death / kids being thrown into rivers / abandoned / abused etc than kids being allowed to be adopted by gay parents~ why let them die when u can place them in loving families? just because it's not normal doesn't means that you can decide that that poor kid who was abandoned by their own parents (those with so called normal human relationship) doesn't deserve a happy family~ i think gay father will be loving parents~ do u have gay friends? they are like the most caring and understanding ppl ever~

so i think it's a total bs claiming that the human population will extinct when small minority can only opt to adopt~ seeing extremist ignorant ppl in the name of religion going on rally against gay ppl is just sick~ what ppl do in their private life has anything to do with your ~~pathetic~~ life?

and don't they need to work? i am always amuse with this~ and those rally to stop a film from being released? (now you wanna control what we can see now? are you f-ing finas or something) these extremist ppl are just shallow minded~ they don't contribute anything on science, technology or development... this is not an era when u need to fight for freedom (at least here)... so... i don't know why the news have to give them 30 seconds screen time to be f-tards drama queen just because they have an opinion of their own~ but can you at least try to see the pros and cons before moronifying yourself with your f-tard ugly manila card banner and prove that you have a point?

just sayin~

workload is piling up...i can see no tomorrow (the sun rising)~
kyaaa~ dateline until March 15~ see how busy am i~

ijou~

i still haven't fallen for you

2012-01-18T10:55:00.001+09:00

and will probably never fall for you~
*tsk* like usual, my love-hate pt time job (more towards hate)
this freakin' drama only revolves around ONE ~~f-in~~ stage play *what?!*
like i have 10th sense, i predicted someone will get hurt and tonnes of irritating-power-hunger jelly ppl~
and there is~

arghhhh. . .after this there's a 20 episode project waiting (kindly let me kill all those drama-dragging-uberly-stereotypical scriptwriters) *mian* 18 epi nearly suffocated me...20 will probably send me 6000 feet under boiling in the crust of the earth *maybe not so shallow~ (c) fail science*

everyday i'm ninja~ (c) *throws flying dagger then vanishes into thin air*
like i've always said before and i'm going to say again...i like to vanish into the thin air~
looking forward but not so for now cuz i need something else~
dayum~ every time i think of this it reminds me of falling into that not so fun f-ing rabbit hole on top of a mountain~ no point crying over already evaporated spilled milk~ but dayum~!!!
purease~ nae time is running out~
♪♫ tic toc tic toc micheogeonda charming eyes ♫♪

Lee Hongki's voice is dayum amazing~

2012-01-16T09:21:00.000+09:00

T.T
Hongki's singing makes me weak at heart~
his voice sounds so emo and sad...at times his voice is so strong and powerful~
what's amazing is sad + emo then strong and powerful all in one song~
this guy is amazing~ he's like the closes i've ever get to oor's live~
he has the same voice tone as Taka's voice~ but this two group is totally different~
never the less, i like this kind of voice~
and up until now i never hear lee hongki's voice cracking~ maybe he has absolute pitch (c) nae conspiracy~
because any normal human would crack even god of the rising sun~

if you like band, watching FT Island performing live is a must~

. . .

2012-01-15T23:18:00.000+09:00

sns rant. . .
mute function doesn't work~ dayum-ed RT still appears~ *sigh*
what i hate the most is timeline filled with FG related-stuff instead of nae oppar twitting nice selca of himself *kyaaa*
dayum~ i ain't got no money money money to buy any of that stuff now~
i've said this before and i'm gonna say it again~ extremely hate award show RT~
so what if oppar is breathing in red carpet? am i there? not there, no f-s are given~ *scrolls tumblr*
dayum~

~~i don't even have time to scroll tumblr~~~
where's my oppar's nice selca *scrolls for 100 gazillion of useless RTs before seeing nae oppa's update*
pigonhae~

katalk me~

2012-01-11T22:24:00.001+09:00

rant of SNS, virtual world~

lonely kakao talk chatroom~
love the message tone~
but not a lot of ppl use katalk *dayum~*
nae katalk icon is elephant~ *dying*

dayum 02: unmuted RT of muted users
*dayum* stop flooding my timeline with products like fb~
nae fb recently became like a market~
i ain't got no money money money~

i'm on a journey to find an icon to accompany me. . .totoro? willy ya~?! or Shin (da heck is this Shin, ka?)
it's not the Shin from my Heartstring pt time job~ my Shin was Shin before this Shin existed *tsk* i think Minhyuk is cuter (just like i like to call unnie as nuna, he call nuna as unnie~) but Shin is just a normal teddy bear...i need something special, fluffy and handy. . .

true story. . .
when i first started to conquer the highway out in the wild, i was afraid that the sky would fall down~
i think i nearly die when i first drive to ss2 for my class. . .for a moment i've totally forgotten how to drive on mountain~ o.O; i was only 'harshly' trained by nae oppa to drive around the neighborhood...'harshly' cuz he ask me to drive with one hand (?!) i ain't that 86-guy-who-drives-on-a-mountain-sending-tofu-which-i've-forgotten-his-name~ Toshio? (ju-on? wooyoungie?) *bleh*
then i started to bring a doll with me (which was also 'harshly' thrown at the floor by nae oppa cuz it was sitting on the cup holder!)...then i'm not so forever alone while driving~

pending, pending, pending. . .

2012-01-09T00:43:00.000+09:00

i swear my brain is being bombarded with tonnes off stuff. . .
but as long as i get internet and netbook sorted out~ i'm all good~

infinite members in need of a little beating~
kyaa~ but if i'm a member, i'd poke a stick on leadergyu too (proud to share the same type of airiness & bloodtype with Nam Woohyun...) (c) shameless
Leadergyu is no longer afraid of dogs~ *chak chak*

bbyong. . .

i'ma gonna name it...

2012-01-07T02:11:00.000+09:00

Eastrain keep calm~
*wait till i get my hands on em'* spanking new lime green thing~ greenish thing is basically irresistible~
maybe i had to give in for a smaller useless junk just to get there ahead of when i preferred to be...messing up my schedule...i'm even starting to think about getting wireless there and spend 4-6 hrs daily doing it cuz i need to sustain it for some time...
hell yeah i'm going somewhere...but it's not confirmed so no point keep on saying 'i want this and that' like some losers~

i think JJ's future kids gonna have funky names too~ *cough* (c) just another ss moment...
Eunhae aka SilverSea is a cool name...

p/s: Eastrain is Dongwoo~ kyaaa.... (c) random with no fail...

quote geek~

2012-01-05T17:16:00.000+09:00

at some point of their life, Libra will be a sucker for quotes
and goes "woah" when they see or hear something amazing~

[ZICO] You're weak at your core with absolutely no foundations, but the more you try and cover your weakness up through fake words and actions turns you into nothing but empty formalities and vanity

"woah~" . . . true~ am a witness to some cheerleader who ain't in the game. . .
this 19 year old kid's mind is amazing~ (c) @bontheblock

i am still afraid...
but i will always remember..."don't be afraid and just do it"
kindly go watch Survivor reunion and listen to what Ozzy said~

i want a road trip~ but the timing is really off~ on top of that, no ppl clicks with what i had in mind~
*on the edge of slipping off into depression for being unwanted*
at times i felt like ppl sees me as a threat by me breathing in air and does nothing even near to provoking ppl~ why is so?

forever alone is pretty scary though...
just like skydiving, i need someone to push me off the plane...
just like skydiving too, i need someone to jump with me... (c) damn libra, stop judging two sides of the story and go with one...not either nor but one *dammit*

i am still afraid... i still need some time~ whoever takes the journey with me will be cherished~ kyaaa *on the edge of bribing* i know how to read map~ like much better than woo jiho (?!)~ i have sense of direction~ kyaaa *self-fanning*

today i went to renew my passport that took me 4 hrs~ i was sitting there looking at how slow counter 1 & 3 was and how amazingly fast counter 4 was for like 2 hrs *tsk*
then i had to wait 2 hrs to get my passport *sobz* 1 hrs promise is bullcrap~ the 1 hr promise banner is like an eyesore. . .what's even soring is that the kiosk went down down down~ i thought i can finish everything within 1.5 hrs with the kiosk but it decided to just fail without me even trying...
anyway i had to walk around putrajaya on a tanning session to spend 2 hrs and ended up going into a museum...and i saw real bones of a whale *please let me die* T.T
i still wanna see whale~ willy ya~

まだ世間しらずなガキです

2012-01-01T07:38:00.000+09:00

『☆＃％◎※・・・』
^ deep stuff man, deep stuff~
a few days back i stumble with Shortie Ryo's solo song (kyaaa~ can't stop and will probably never stop calling him shortie~ *naturally born meanie*)
all his solo songs is somewhat simple yet complicated~
Code, Stereo, Ordinary? can't choose my fav. . .

i need a spanking new computer~
if i didn't spend so much money in november to do something i don't care much *sigh*
sufficient to say i can already buy a spanking new desktop with that 3 days worth of expenses~ *spanking ownself*
having furafura personality is the worst, sometimes at least, i still love being airy cuz i felt other people's unnecessary burden as a burden...there are times ppl worry about stuff that's to me not something you should worry about~ worst off all, sometimes i think to work in a place for a couple of years is suffocating while other ppl tend to want that 'security'~
i've used about 20 years worth of patience to deal with this slow desktop after my laptop decided to just die like my life is not depending on it~ i don't have any patience left in me~
i think i need someone to be my center while i fly freely on top~ ~~what a fail explanation~~
just like GD who's always moving around who has TOP as the center~ i need to find me a TOP~ but it's hard to find a sunjeongnam like him~ kyaaa...
recently i found out that there's something like all-in-one computer exist in this world~ kyaaa~
i need an all-in-one~ *crying buckets*
with spanking new computer, i can stream that damn show...heck~ before that i can BC LIVE~ i won't have my heart 'broken' while peeking behind those curtain and saw Jang Hyunseung 'mock' kissing another girl~ *bleh* i can have it broken with hd BC at my hse instead~!!! that's why i'm mad. . .for something free, i spend like a fortune to sit on top of a mountain... i barely can see those actor and actresses i do not even bother to care. . .and maybe half an hour of SJ and Beast perf *smack ownself*
so i've decided not to be furafura and ignore until i get my spanking new computer~

2011: what is right?
swear nothing was right. . .
and i blame it all on myself for trusting people~
especially that FatAss~ reality show your fat ass. . .
then this and that. . .
this year there's only one agenda. . .or maybe another secret one?
main agenda : to fly
secret agenda: to fall in front of kim jaejoong~ (lolzzz i won't be able to go there until 2013...by that time he'll be a very cool guy protecting his country~ Oct 2010 will probably be the first and last time we'll ever meet *pretending to be emo* swear i nearly died when he sung Seoshi~ kyaaa the lyrics is just making ppl fat~ but i still like forever alone sad song like Footsteps, Crying. . .and other one i've forgotten~)
sounding like i won't be living after that trip~ bye. . .
and do not blindly trust people~ what i've learn is that when i trust them, all i get was tonnes and tonnes of lies pouring in like i'm an idiot~ *tsk* that's the way u choose to lead your life then go ahead. . .

love hate on drama~
i don't like k-drama but had to watch em' for work purpose. . .*getting bricks frm their fans*
without bias, Protect the boss is quite funny minus those ajummas forever plotting to get power and looking down on poor people...or maybe JJ kissing in HD (which he claims filmed for 50 takes...mother of god~!)~ i swear i skip it to avoid my heart being over jelly~ ignorance is always my bliss~ the girl must have save an entire nation in her past life to kiss kim jaejoong for at least 50 times~ universe of god~! meanwhile, i must have only saved myself in my past life *sobz*

i don't fancy asian drams but i watch tvb's if my fav actor is in it *cough* strangely likes Ron Ng a lot *cough* or if the story sound interesting...like cannibalism (m'kay, maybe not cannibalism but it's abt a group of ppl eating their friend after starving for a long time on top of a mountain)
but the problem is there's too much bitch fights and bitches you'd want to skip their part entirely cuz of their 'righteousness' *bleh* and damn annoying high pitch voice and frowning faces... pls~ i just want to know how they ended up eating their best friend on top of a mountain and how they deny it during the trial~

american series is still the best~ haven't watch dexter for weeks~ but right now i need to go finish that cannibalism drama~ lolz before i start doing Heartstrings *bangs head on slow desktop*

this year live as if you'll die today~ too ^^ *c.h.a.o.s.m.y.t.h is like the story to live my life*
oor's song is the remedy to mend my broken soul *exaggerating emo*

please let me fly and see real life penguin and whale (i nearly died when they say it's possible to see whale~) they are one of my fav animals~ probably because i watch Free Willy without any sense of failing when i was small. . .i wanna see real life willy in the wild~ T.T willy ya~

bbyong~

off the undying do or die spirit

2011-12-28T03:55:00.000+09:00

that's always bothering my mind~
*tiredness to no extend*
after this i'll buy 365 pieces of eye mask to change my ethnicity from panda to human~
before i can take another gulp of fresh air from everything, i had another one waiting~

anyway~
Jaejoong is like the hyungnim of my bias list (not only that Mr. Kim is the oldest among all *one lonely yet precious little oppa* (uber emo...i'll pull the trigger on whoever who say they 'hate' someone cuz they are younger than them when they were born after 1990~ do you wanna be 18 years old, 18 years later? *hyung-smirk*)
anyway. . .Kim Sunggyu is my magnae bias *chak chak*

this is basically a useless post~ i was thinking about magnae...all my bias is magnae in their family (one or two...three to be exact turns out to be the hyungnim in their group~)
i just wanna say...magnae will forever be magnae~ kyaaa~

back to becoming a zombie~ pls feature 45 minutes of jaejoong or i'll flip seeing those ajumma keep on fighting for power like it's something we didn't already predicted before this drama was ever written~ *tsk*

seriously Kim Jaejoong~!

2011-12-26T19:25:00.000+09:00

single eyelid?!
it's not that i can go get a single eyelid surgery~
it's not that i want single eyelid or prefer to be double eyelid...
but having one single and one double is a brand new story~
either you stay forever being weird-looking in photos and never failness of having mis-matched eyes,
you'd want to fix it~
altho it ain't perfect but don't come and tell me it's unique...unique is when you saw freaks and doesn't wanna call them freaks~ or you probably fail to understand the freakiness of it *bleh*

i secretly like single eyelid too~ *i feel you, kim jaejoong*
look at Kim Sunggyu~ gah~
his mashimaro eyes is so adorable especially under the sunlight *evil sounding but nan joah*

See~ very adorable grumpy looking baby & grandpa~ *insert heart*
double eyelid or not, what's matter is our perception jyan?

gah~ how many slices of pizza i had for the past two days~ but then. . .i'd probably get bricks thrown at me for saying this...i won't gain weight by eating pizza loaded with cheese~ but still fat~ kyaaa. . .
won't gain weight doesn't mean not fat. . .i also gain weight everywhere but my waist~ i dunno if it's a curse or not but ppl keep telling me "look at your waist~ look at your waist~"...do you wanna look at the scales?!
*self reflect while munching on apple before the scale goes backward*

EastSea ya~

2011-12-21T04:50:00.006+09:00

The sea is here. . .
for a brief moment, i thought Seoul is nearby to the seaside~
i never thought it was figuratively him~ *tsk* cheated my feeling~!
i too always thought i was close with people but it turns out that they think otherwise~
EastSea ya, don't feel lonely anymore...there's 8 more members to poke fun at
no.1 target should be Hyukkie~

even though Hyukkie tries to lock him out but he still kept on bothering Hyukkie~ lolz~
don't you know he doesn't know the meaning of giving up?
he would fight to solve awkwardness~ that's the Libra spirit~ lol...
i can't stand unfairness too...especially unfairness that landed on ownself~ *bleh*

Listening to 'I'll protect you' until the whole neighborhood knows how to sing. . .
T.T wuwuu~
♫♪ 다른 누구도 아니 네 앞에 있잖아. 내가 니 손을 잡고 있잖아♪♫
nae favorite line~ although right now at least, i think nothing is more bothersome than ppl threatening to die when your heart doesn't feel the same~
i've seen them all in all those k-dramas i had to watch due to my pt time job. . .it's all the same~
one people couldn't let go and they keep on trying to make another person change back their heart shedding tonnes of tears drowning me in the pacific ocean filled with tears (p/s: not me crying but i felt suffocated i'd like to drown myself in the Sea)~
in the end they always fail miserably and had to become forever alone mostly in a foreignland~ kyaaa. . .
~~Jaejoong~~ Cha Muwon is going to become forever alone~ poor thing... normally the second lead actor/actress are cursed to be forever alone or stuck up with their second choice... *tsk* that's why i don't watch em' unless i had to~
they need to change the norm...for once let the poor forever alone second actor become the haengbok fella~
or even change everything...no more interlinking 4 ppl who happens to have complicated relationship dating each other for at least once~
and let's not talk about their eomma and power struggle~ to me it's all the same~
i'd rather watch banged up abroad~ lol it's also always the same...young people being 'duped' to smuggle drugs, was caught cuz they were acting suspicious, ended up in jail and went thru all the ordeals to be released and turn to a new leaf~ *tsk*

btw i'd probably listen to it for 1000 times while doing my work~
playing one song without any sense of failing cuz i uberly like the way he sung the bridge and 2nd chorus~
nae rocker tofu oppa, don't get hurt anymore~

ijou. . .

December is all about....

2011-12-21T04:34:00.000+09:00

Kimchi Jaejoong / Kim Jaejoong / JJ / Joongie / *whatever i fancy calling*~
my baby who doesn't know how to take care of himself (c) cheesy B *nomz*~
i am busy (but still writing) cuz there's a big bloody blood clot in my brain screaming at me to finish my work~ (?!)
i've been deprived of sleep and any-other-things-i-fancy-doing because of KIM JAEJOONG. *cough* 's drama part time that took away my soul leaving a zombie sitting in front of the computer typing mindlessly all day everyday (i just saw a cat walking by...is this fantasy or reality?) . . .
although it's not entirely jj's fault that i am chinese character illiterate or i had to do it~
but...

anyway, i've been listening to 'I'll protect you' for about 1000 times now with no sense of ever failing. . .
i will now go and create a miracle to finish everything by this friday~
which means i had to watch 12 episodes of korean drama in one go~
i'd rather if someone poke a stick in my expanding skull to release the tension inside...(c) stuff i said when sleep is deprived...

mean while kim jaejoong just lie on his bed making me jelly* with a bandage on his right eye saying "seems like i don't know how to take care of myself, everyone pls take care" (owh~ poor thing~ scratched by jiji?)
* jelly cuz of his rosey-pink-no-makeup-skinny-cheeks~ gosh... *cutting off my fats for jj*
♫♪ i hate this weather, i hate this weather, i hate this weather, i hate this weather, i tenshi neomu na shiro~ ♪♫
there's 8 more months ~~for us~~ let's share 3 more seasons together.. (c) cheesy B *nomz*

namuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

2011-12-15T22:03:00.000+09:00

*just wanna do that*
this ain't twitter and i like to use tweet tweet style~ *huuuuu*

i'll protect you
i like the bridge and 2nd chorus so much~
that's my rocker boy *winku winku*
~~the sultry voice to die for~~~

ijou. . .

if you only had one year to live~

2011-12-12T02:46:00.000+09:00

what will you do?
i wanna wear a white dress in a white coffin. . .
sink my ashes into the sea. . .
after i'm dead there isn't any need to keep my ashes in a place for people to console themselves during certain time of the year. . .i don't even need a funeral~ i'd like to go the ninja-style way~

♫♪ tic toc tic toc micheogeonda charming eye ♪♫

the writer who lost her purpose (c) yong jun hyung...

2011-12-08T23:21:00.000+09:00

*sigh*
saying my farewell~ don't you ever come back like you did before. . .
i too have dreams that's screaming for my attention. . .
listening to fiction while being emo. . .

your voice...

2011-12-04T05:35:00.000+09:00

reassures me that everything is going to be fine
at that time i look at the sky and all i heard was the rap part of 'Mirror' ft none other than Eunhae
when i was at the lowest of my lowest lost in the middle of nowhere, i heard your voice~
it took away all the miseries. . .
and his cover of My Everything...he sung it for his late father...it reminds me of my late grandma T.T
today i get to listen to his voice again...how i miss this voice. . .
*cheesy* donghae's voice is my strength *cheesy* but true~

10 years passed by...if you're still here maybe i'll lead a happier life~
~~see you soon~~~?!

♫♪ We are living in the same world? 僕と君　答えはないけど運命の出会いさえ　誰かの決めごとで… ♪♫

2011-11-26T22:50:00.005+09:00

still not over being sick~
i had a chance to go touch touch Junho-sshi but i was too busy being sick~
but at least i got a chance to attend the concert~
people shouldn't be overly greedy with things *tsk tsk*
stop acting like it was my damn fault for you not being able to attend the concert~
one thing i hate the most is ppl not replying my msg~ (being cultivated by ~~humanity to a HATE level by a certain someone i'd like to call an irresponsible~~ fat ass ~~wannabie full with nothing but lies~~)

it's totally ridiculous hoping to get something expensive at dirt cheap prices~
these people need to learn there's no free lunch in this world~
maybe i got my ticket for free...but it's not something i think i'm entitled off~
if i didn't get it, i don't go and blame the world~ geez...
i do not wanna be fanatic. . .

wooyoung~
can't believe there's like empty places between us that he stood there and sing and look at me~ you can't snatch Junho-sshi's place...his greed is bigger than the universe~ just look at the malay words he spit out during the concert...frm everyone that came here before, junho is probably the most diligent in learning malay~ his do or die spirit is admirable~
i've forgotten how much i've enjoy listening to their old songs~ why am i not a big fan...
~~bring back Park Jaebum~~. . .
and they sung Electricity~ that's my fav song frm their new album...i like the way Wooyoung and Junho sung the chorus~

next up...take my bags and fly~ ^^

hello my hamster~

2011-11-24T13:35:00.003+09:00

turning on the tv and u saw your hamster kneeling down~
*pls let me die or stop acting so uberly cute*
now i pronounce Kim Sunggyu as the cutest person i've ever seen~
he's cute by just breathing without any need to aegyo *cough* NamuHyun*cough*

kyaaa~ if my baby look like this. . .~~it means that i'm secretly married with Kim Sunggyu and probably won't come back to narnia~ don't miss me ♫♪you don't miss your water til' the well runs dry♪♫~~~ close friends can come to my wedding...u guys get to sit next to your infinite bias *fake smirk* puhahaa~ (c) reality
has tendency to be greasy~ kyaaa...instead of fan service, mine is friend service~ i give ya'll your bias~ (c) forever delusional

can you believe this cute thing grow up to be a rocker? kyaaaa~
that's why he's the bias... and also how the others call him old man gyu, grandpa gyu, medicine gyu~ kekee~
i don't like him cuz he's cute~ that's superficial~ *tsk*

Dear Leader Gyu,

Please sing a rock song...a japanese rock song by One Ok Rock will be nice~ Onegaishimasu~

from: Cole nuna~

ijou~

kyaaa~ guess i'm not going~

2011-11-22T22:48:00.019+09:00

boohoo~
what's the point of asking meh?!
so sick of empty talks~
this is why i don't really like it when ppl keep on talking sunshine, moonlight, stars, universe, galaxy and blackhole~ in the end nothing ever happens~ do not tell me if you don't mean it cuz i might believe in you~
whatever~

imagine turning the tv on and u saw...
your hamster~ kyaaa. . .
every time i saw Namstar, i don't feel like eating cuz he's so skinny yet greasy~
i think he burn all his calories by being greasy~
as if aegyo-ing and putting 'phan = yeochin' is not enough, he even flashes his skinny abs~
hamster is also skinny~ he used to be chubby like a guinea pig...now he's reverted to his original size...which is a hamster~
please take all my food~
p/s: i see L warning Inspirit not to look at other guys~ i also know where he get those greasiness frm~ *fake smirk* (c) nae conspiracy~
p/s 02: most B are pretty greasy~ Namu, Seobbie, Kyung, Seungie~ (i'm not greasy ~~cuz i don't have fans~~~ kyaaaa) (c) nae conspiracy~
but the new channel repeats everything for like 2-3 times a day for a week~ o.O;;;

♪♫Niga iseo yaman yeogi ga Paradise-ing♫♪
i don't have their God-like precision on the beat ~~cuz i'm no Lee Howon~~~
with the undying spirit driven by Lee Howon, let the repeat begins~ kyaa~
(c) dear writer, wae-am-i-not-your-bias #02
there's a lot of potential bias wrecker in the team~

everyday~
re-defying the purpose of living by experimenting day and night~
guess there's no need to care about some strangers i will only meet once~
getting pissed is only a waste of energy i could use to think and do something better~
no more f-s are given. . .do well~ kyaaa

(c) dear writer, wae-am-i-not-your-bias #1
ft #02

☆ ~동우씨생일축하합니다~ ☆
everyday i'm asking...wae this babo cheonjae is not my bias~ his 'stay calm' voice is very lovable jyan~
love both of their raps in Tic Toc~ and a lot of english lyrics they put in their rap~
but kindly look at your awesomely cute leader~
i can't see his eyes under the sunlight~ *pls allow me to die~*

i'm in...inspirit~ lolz

an explosion of cuteness~
hehee~ aren't they cute all posting Namu's greasy message? his greasiness is incurable~ kyaaa~

ijou~

mainstream media. . .

2011-11-15T22:43:00.000+09:00

it's for the majority
you know, those alike ones~ etc. . .
i for one, doesn't really like to associate myself with any group or any fandom~
just wanna be a unique individual~ nothing much like the masses

like recently i saw a vid of a girl shouting so hysterically when her group won something...i loaded the video to see the f-ing show...the first thing that comes in my mind is i don't wanna be someone like that~
who even cares?
and also those who update when they're watching a show "oppa is currently inhaling O2~"~
why did i unfollow those irritating fanclubs who keep on updating useless stuff like "OMG~ oppa is currently breathing in so-so event~"
srly? i rather go breathe the same airrrr as oppa than keep on sayaing "i wish~ i was there"~ i never wish...i just do it~
stop flooding my timeline cuz i just wanna see what oppa tweet~ your opinion never matters~
same goes to trending topics. . .
it has developed a spamming culture~
and also those who follow me expecting i will do followback~ what kind of loser are u?
you didnt post anything useful but a bunch of 'pls follow me back' etc~ what's the point?
why dont u go get a life?

Spamming culture: advertisers who think repeating something is going to make your potential buyers remember the brand...
guess what pati ayam that keeps on appearing at least 100 times every night. . .
it makes people hate your brand even more~
i think the ad is tasteless full with fake interview. . .
the more i leave the tv on, the more i hated the brand~
it's like everyone will be uber dumb without taking that thing~
if you're tired after lunch, why don't you just grab a cup of coffee?
who tells the world they are some lazy ass on national television?
who tells the world they're incapable of learning on national television? lol
those who drink over priced pati ayam has to know that they paid for the crap (the tasteless ads) to be brainwashed every night (at least) that they needed it to be more intelligent and some other bla bla~

well it's just unpopular opinion~ *bleh*

are you sad?

2011-11-10T22:17:00.002+09:00

Look at the pic below~

"i am still the cutest baby ever"
every time when i'm feeling a lil' bit *bleh* i just look at this pic~
this is probably the most amazing discovery for my year~ *maybe aside frm discovering Infinite*

I just finish watching 4 episodes of k-drama in one go and now i'd like to kill someone~
this is purely work and nothing else. . .how can someone be so nice though *cries* no chaebol
1) will fall in love with me on the first sight
2) be that simple minded, humble and *insert every other good stuff about Song Yoohyun*
not much of an asian drama fans~ i think the only good thing abt this drama is when Micky oppa's face come out being kind and soft-spoken that doesn't seems to have any anger even if you poke him with a stick~ that other ajushi is just. . .hard to watch~
i'm so sorry~~~~~

give me my weekly dose of Dexter, criminal minds, ANTM, Survivor, Project Runway, The Simpsons, Walking Dead, Glee. . .
yup~ that's pretty much what i'm watching for this season~

gotta go get me some pepero sticks tomorrow~ *pretty sad*

when i can't sleep...

2011-11-07T05:44:00.001+09:00

normally i'll load pororo to watch~
because i like penguin. . .
and i do think Hyunseungie looks like pororo when all of a sudden he decided to wear glasses out of the blues~
but look what i found~

pororo in disguise of pororo~!!!
you didn't just bought a pororo cover~
the rate of you getting skinny then gaining weight is so amazing~ it happens every other month~ good to hear you're exercising cuz i did tell you to exercise lol

if i don't watch pororo vids, i'll watch dance practice vids~ lolz

i know i like a group when i start watching their dance practice video~
i watch it more often than their MV (most probably once or twice~ fail fan lol)
i don't watch a lot of performance too~ ain't your typical fan yo~ don't put that label on me~

niwayz the other day i was hoping that Infinite would release Paradise dance practice. . .and they did T.T
like BTD the most. . .they are releasing Japanese version~
#Japanese and dance is very important in my life~

erm. . .whatever~ doing well while trying to recover my life~

ありえない~

2011-11-06T21:22:00.001+09:00

just what the fuckery~
i decided to help cuz i heard it was for an 'exam' or something but in actual it was just a practise~
is that it? u take my skin as practice~?!
so effin mad cuz i wont drag my skin like that~ it felt like 10 years damage has been done within 3hrs with the constant rubbing, drawing, rubbing, drawing~ *~!!*
if they were to tell me it was just for practice then i wouldn't agree cuz my skin is not for u to practice~ sry to be rude~
n u dont even need effing height for this practice~
hated the experience~ most prob i'm just a friend in need but guess what, it's not even for a friend~ *so i don't even bother to give anymore fs*
wasted 3 hrs when i'm suppose to spend it doing my pt~ my eyes got so sore and i couldn't do much after that~ *endless fsssssssss*
so much for things i don't give any fs~!
am so mad for all that...dont effin use my skin as practice n keep on telling me it damaging the skin~ it just makes me more annoyed as time goes by~
짜증나

out of all the things this is what i hate the most~
i really hated it a lot~ not saying i have the best skin ever but i just don't like the idea~ for the airrrrrrr~ *f~!*
panda eyes killed me. . .gotta get me some 'eye alert'~

no more second times cuz i'm f-ing busy~ f-ing f-ing busy. . .i don't even have time to breath let alone sit there and let some peeps destroy my eyes~ *bleh~*

dying. . .before that i wanna fly *sobs myself to zzz~*

hep hap~

2011-11-05T22:33:00.000+09:00

Mnet, you didn't. . .
where's my Block B?
they make their own songs~
just how many new comers can make their own song?

only when i can see Block B's hep hap live~

they ain't perfect but their rappers is pretty dope~

Zico reggae hair is resting somewhere where the sun is shining with his kitty~
anywayz~ i think they promoted the wrong songs~ both Wanna B and Halo has more attitude than their cover song~ just sayin'

that's hep hap~

should i go make a kitty debit card? lolz. . .
in need to undo some failness for forgetting my fancy passwords~
so much hate to drag myself into the bank~

internet decided to fail on me~

2011-11-02T23:45:00.000+09:00

you don't fail when i'm doing pt time~
so i wasted one day breathing air and probably had to translate the one i did again and again~ FML. . .
if i tell anyone, they will probably tell me "go learn chinese" as if chinese can be learn in a day or so~ i have a statement to make. . .imagine learning English~
yup~ can't be perfected in a day or two as well~ kindly apply the same concept~

before i go any further look at this pic~

he was the easiest member to recognize (aside from Zico) when Block B first came out because of his red hair~ his hair is any color but black~
i love blond hair and people with blond hair~ any other argument is invalid because it's what i like~

i have good (?!) news
not that good since it's not Beast, Infinite or Block B~ m'kay~
and i will be slaving with no pay. . .just bapbap & stay (lol)
i'll probably get to see them when they walk in and out~ *bleh*
imagine if their crew call my hp~ they'll hear ♫ Everyday I shock~ every night i shock~ ♫
but i'm not even bothering to change that just for nobody~
slaving ain't good. . .hope that it'll be a good ~~working~~ slaving experience~
i'm not much of a big fan. . .i just like the guy with the will-as-big-as-a-universe'~

ijou~ blogspot has decided to fail. . .

hello, i'm the cutest baby ever

2011-10-31T03:08:00.004+09:00

"and stop calling me a grandpa" baby gyugyu

OMG~ something just doesn't change~
i seriously LOL-ed when i saw this pic *evil evil*
but i like this pic a lot~ awwwww~ his mashimaro brow n eyes is just the same~
that baby grew up to be a grandpa~

*blogspot have decided to fail gif*

i like this scene tho~ gyugyu jal haetta~ *nae failed korean*

Jang Hyunseung. . .
pls do not appear in a video when kikwang is talking~!!!
my timeline is flooded with Jang Hyunseung walking at the bg~ LOL~

ijou~

. . .

2011-10-29T22:26:00.000+09:00

* airy *
don't want this, don't want that~ makes me feel sick already dealing with that~
i don't wanna be like that either~ whatever it is. . .

all say, no do is a big no no~ so i don't say 'i want' much but say when i'm at it~
whatever ever~~~

the walking dead
nice make up~ i like the pale skin they had *0*
they chew off a horse~!!! what?
i thought the horse is going to live long. . .
but only has less than 10 mins of screen time or so~ *tsk tsk*

Inspirit-to-be~

see what will happen if you don't come. . .
i'll. . .
plant Namu ~~Hyun~~ in front of my hse~

there was once i grew a 'grapefruit' sized watermelon in front of my house that unfortunately died. . .
i need me some randomness. . .

chacha is back *sunggyu-kneeling-down.gif*

♫♪ Tic Toc Tic Toc Micheogeonda Charming Eye ♪♫

2011-10-27T22:55:00.003+09:00

Tic Toc has a [LIVE] *clicku*
brb~ dying. . .
i love the rap part~ T.T
Dongwoo is very charismatic in this performance~
that babo-cheonjae will become my bias if i watch BTD first~ or Hoya. . .
too bad Kim Sunggyu, the hamster in disguise of lion snatches the bias place by doing nothing but nagging his members and being tired~ lolz nah~ Charismatic Leader-sshi is uber uber good in singing + is a rocker boy despite his cute hamster look~ dakara my bias. . .

i only recognize their song when i saw them live~ *facepalm*
but nvm~ i was there for their 1st oversea performance~

when i first watch Sesame Player i dunno who is who~ but they keep on repeating their song thru out the show so it become addictive~
and they also didn't lip sync

need to get me some life when chacha is back~
still dying frm not being able to get blond hair for now~ Dongwoo's hair is very nice *over zealous~* he has been blond since the first time we met~ (literally) boy is addicted to green color too~ and i like both babo & cheonjae type and he is cheonjae in disguise of babo~ how can he not be my bias? Kim Sunggyu is uber lucky~ *tsk tsk* this is life. . .

2011-10-24T23:36:00.000+09:00

the Kim JJ i miss~

i miss the rocker boy, his talking voice, the blond hair , those emo solo song he sung
i miss seeing him being like this~
the JJ i like will never change~
i'm not sure if i'm a big fan of rock but i really like the sound of electric guitar since forever. . .and i'm not a big fan of love song either~
Maze is the type of song i'd like to listen to. . .i ain't any typical fangirl~

what the fuckery?
there's a thing called the internet where you can find almost anything
i think it's ridiculous that ppl would need my help to find things that i need to find from the internet (talk abt spoon feeding) and i don't even work for u anymore~
gosh. . .

I don't know the world too~♫♪

this guy used to be tone deaf. . .reminds me of all the things we can do~

con't doing something blah~
blond hair. . .do or die~

everyday i'm ninja-ing~

2011-10-22T03:28:00.003+09:00

I wanna see my hamster~
if i see real life Scorpion dance or Kim Sunggyu kneeling down, i'm gonna be an Inspirit~ *insert heart* LOL
i felt like buying hamster and call him leader gyu, gyugyu, kim sunggyu, patient gyu, grandpa gyu, medicine gyu *insert random Gyugyu's nickname* but i can't. . .*sobs* i can't leave gyugyu unattended for 3-6 months~
i just can't for some reasons i don't wanna say out loud right now. . . bleh~
Bbang's North Face MV~
that's my dream. . .i wonder who rolled down the slopes~ he must be a dork~
TOP-sshi ate some ice and shove it to someone else~
i had secret crush on dorks like TOP-sshi but he's so fine~ i like the dork side more
sunjeong TOP~!

i wanna go MAMA. . .
and see dudu and gyugyu~ geez all my bias has cute names but they're not really cute ones in their group~ they are the fearless leader~ puhahaa~

bbyong~

they are back. . .

2011-10-07T23:19:00.000+09:00

Every now and then they give me a jab of energy to my soul~

So much freedom it fills me with enviness
when can i see the blue sky on an empty piece of land like this in real life~?
Love the feel of it~ nothing fancy. . .just great great music~

♫♪ Dream as if you will live Forever. And live as if you'll die today ♪♫
carpe diem. . . they reminds me of the simple stuff i oversee living in this complicated world~ they use a lot of English too~ but i think the Japanese lyrics is where all the gems are hidden. . .the way he uses his words is amazing. . .

♪♫...and we stay forever young~ ♫♪
my fav line in U-kiss' Neverland~
well, if i die today, won't i be forever young? kekee #FLogic~

if i can turn back time. . .i'd hang myself with the umbilical cord~ #watch-too-much-butterfly-effects... then i'll be forever young~ #FLogic 02
Speaking of Butterfly Effects. . .i wanna watch it again~ it's awesome. . .if my life changes like that, i'd want to hang myself with the umbilical cord too after living 1000 of different life~

if u don't see me, i wonder what happen?
probably eating ice on a mountain top while seeing my fav penguin~
my fav animal is whale~ i wanna see one out in the ocean before i die~ i'll probably cry from the sight of it. . .T.T

bbyong. . .

say hello. . .

2011-10-03T23:54:00.000+09:00

Hello my month~

Hello Woogyu~ so much love in one pic this is too much~
i'm gonna be awake for 11 days and go back to sleep until April 2012~
what am i doing then? i'm going to eat ice like TOP-sshi if there's snow~

i just bought a phone~ *Sunggyu-kneeling-down.gif* lolz so much hassle i wish phone will auto renew itself~
i still can't get over of Sunggyu's epic-ness in Paradise. . .
whenever i listen to that part, his kneeling down image will flash in my mind~ good job Mr. Choreographer *jak jak jak~*

that's all. . .
♫♪gotta get me some life. . .i need a life like ♪♫
(c) Taeyang's song, never failed being abused here. . .Why you didn't come? but i saw TOP-sshi~ and for free (best part, forever be grateful cuz nothing comes free in my life but a chance to see TOP-sshi so up close. . .)
the second best part is i got 2 sms at the same time. . .first my friend say she couldn't get any ticket then another friend ask me if i wanna go~ the timing is just. . .arienai~ it's like losing hope and getting it back, back-to-back. . .

bbyong. . .

my phone has a ninja screen

2011-09-28T23:05:00.004+09:00

why i let them bothers me at all?
so much negativities with these people that it's contagious~
i don't wanna be like them. . .

phone, why do you have to die now?
i don't have any particular phone i want (or the one i want is out of reach for now)
don't think iphone or galaxy or universe~ everyone have them~
i like clamshell phone but those that i can find are so ugly looking~
i like squarish type~ like docomo phones but doesn't work well with my line for now~
the closes was loli-loli-loli-pop~ since i had an LG phone, i know u cannot off the annoying shutter sound~ so embarrassing when you're taking pic~
i don't need a fake shutter sound when taking photo~ that's so wrong~
and since i'm not a tech nerd, i just grab one that looks nice~ so fail. . .
i'll probably wanna throw it down the drain if it's a bad model~
i've already feel like throwing my phone down the sea but that's bad for the fishy and stuff~
so i'm gonna keep it in the drawer and wait until it miraculously disappear like my ex-phones~
only i know how to operate my ninja phone~ but despite the ninjaness of its screen, i can still open the music player *Sunggyu-kneeling-down.gif* lol~

Leader Gyu kneeling down is so epic~ i wish he'll sing a rock song with a band~

bbyong~

maldo andwae~

2011-09-16T21:53:00.004+09:00

although this happens last christmas~
♫♪ last christmas i gave u my hair~ lalaaa~♪♫
i suddenly remember what happen. . .and makes me felt cheated~
~~like the time i sign a stupid contract to make video but end up doing f-ing time wasting data entry for some wannabies in Pro dro mus owned by a serial liar~~~
anyway i went to get my hair colored (even bought a ninja backview photo of Junhyung blond hair pic) but the result is uber uber dissappointing~
i told him no matter what i want the lightest *after listening to his advice cuz it was blah too yellowish bla bla bla* but what i get was a normal everyday person hair color that blend in like ninja in a crowd~ (c) maybe he's color blind or something. . .
i don't want color that can see after being shined by ~~taeyang~~ sunshine~ i don't even walk under the sunshine~ *cough*
i really like that color. . . it's something that you'd like to try for even once and my dreams were shattered into the drain by some crap talk i no longer wanna listen from hairdressers from now on. . .

i just realize Dongwoo's hair is blond *i must be blind cuz it's been a while*
this ninja pic i stole from his twitter @ddww1122~

from then onwards i don't wanna go back to that saloon. . .
i wanna find one that will grant my wish~ i won't listen to anyone anymore~

off K-drama
i spend like 21 days doing pt time translating job not in one language but in two which reminds me how much i don't like it. . .
doing one is tiring enough but doing everything twice + checking is the worst~
it's not like i wanna do both but it's much better than retranslating almost everything~ O.o;
what's tiring is copy pasting chinese to listen and read pinyin because chinese and me doesn't know each other well. . .
some ppl don't really understand how it feels like until they try to do it themselves~
if it still sucks then i have nothing to say. . .

bbyong. . .

can u smile on forever reloop~

2011-08-26T17:17:00.002+09:00

but Dongwoo yah~
the moon is not always there (c) flogic~
^ although i think the concept is not bad. . .until the logic hits me~
but i really like this song~

huuuuuuu~
out of the many things that i can tolerate (bad grammar, maldoandwae word usage bla bla bla~)
what i can't tolerate the most is copy and pasting~
ain't that hard to notice a sudden change of pattern~
i am also referring to the same source~ why do you think i didn't just copy n paste?
i take my work very seriously and copy n pasting is like tainting it~ *sigh*
no ppl understand how it feels like~ FML~

and also thinking highly of your level is just irritating~ *insert endless swearing words*
i wanna watch final destination but everyday i spend like 10 - 14 hrs doing that shit but in the end get tainted with some shortcuts~

Maldoandwae~

Can U Smile

2011-08-20T22:32:00.000+09:00

no =.=;
30 days challenge in 30 minutes~
doesn't live by the rules~

Day 1: Your favourite Infinite member and why
Kim Sunggyu~ a total leader

Day 2: Your favourite Infinite song
BTD~

Day 3: An Infinite song that reminds you of someone
not someone but BTD reminds me of dancing~

Day 4: Your favourite Infinite cover
Kim Sunggyu & L - Lucky

Day 5: Best singer in Infinite
the person in charge of singing, whose hobby and strength is singing and all day every day does nothing but singing. . .Kim Sunggyu~ *cheesy cheesy*
Namstar's belting in She's Back~ live. . .

Day 6: Best dancer in Infinite
Infinite in-house dancing machine~ Hoya

Day 7: An Infinite member you want to be BFFs with
Namstar by the name of Woohyun~

Day 8: An Infinite member you want to go shopping with
Namstar~

Day 9: The member you think is most easily shipped
Dongwoo?

Day 10: Your favourite OTP
Yadong rapper line~ kyakyaaa~ what a title. . .Hoya+Dongwoo~
Woogyu is cute too~

Day 11: An OTP you don’t like
they're all fine~

Day 12: Your favourite Infinite quote/interview
I have POTENTIAL that you've never imagined~ Sunggyu's shirt actually. . .

Day 13: The member you think is funniest
Namstar~ or whenever Dongwoo get pranked by his members~

Day 14: Your favourite variety show cut
Namstar betraying members~

Day 15: An Infinite member you’d kiss
how is this possible?

Day 16: An Infinite member you’d play the ‘I Love You’ game with
i don't remember any saranghae game~ dongwoo? he seems guillible and easy to be pranked type and slow. . .
Day 17: An Infinite member you’d date but in secret
Kim Myungsoo~

Day 18: An Infinite member you’d date out in the open
Kim Sunggyu~

Day 19: An Infinite member you’d bring home
Namstar~

Day 20: An Infinite member you’d go clubbing with
Namstar~

Day 21: Your favourite thing about Sungkyu
wanjeon Leader~

Day 22: Your favourite thing about Dongwoo
gullible personality~

Day 23: Your favourite thing about Woohyun
Namstar's jjang B blood type personality. . . and his neverending love towards his inspirit girlfriendSsssss~ that player. . .kekee

Day 24: Your favourite thing about Howon
Silent bystander~

Day 25: Your favourite thing about Sungyeol
busybody~ but actually knows a lot of his member's dirty secrets~ Sunggyu eat a lot of medicine, Namu had a lot of beauty products, Sungjong hit his teddy bear, Hoya had bad eyesight, prank on dongwoo and L when they were sleeping~

Day 26: Your favourite thing about Myungsoo
mysterious~

Day 27: Your favourite thing about Sungjong
his girl group dance~

Day 28: An Infinite member you’d want as a brother
Namstar~

Day 29: Your perfect day with Infinite
saw infinite walking around asking you if you know them and Namstar grabbed your mp3 player and search for traces of Infinite's song and keep on promoting himself so he can be your bias~ that is Nam Woohyun~ (c) Namu conspiracying~
Day 30: Your perfect date with your Infinite bias
amusement park~ but i think he's kinda weak so i'll substitute him with Namstar or Hoya who seemed fearless~

endless bias towards Namstar because of his jjang B blood type personality~

dance bug all around~

2011-08-19T02:48:00.000+09:00

suki desu~
but because of something i wasn't able to continue. . .
i think i need someone strict until the point that they will make you repeat the same step until you die trying type of sensei~
learning is not fun but when you think of how they tried to kill you by making you repeat the step, you'll cry tears of joy when you finally do kinda well type of lesson~ *excuse me while i go be my own teacher. . .BTD~~~~~~*
somehow of the same genre as Korean eomma type of sensei do well with me~
if you have no idea how is a typical Korean eomma, google 'stuff korean mom likes' i think you'll find a blog abt korean eomma~ when i first read about force feed, my mind went straight to Dudu, Seungie (wouldn't gain an inch of belly fat even being stuffed until rice coming out frm his nose type) (c) nae conspiracy~

since i don't have Korean eomma, i don't really know if it's true but based on the comments i think there's some truth to it~ right? but am glad my mom ain't korean cuz if not i'll be a real obese hippopotamus that makes pig looks tiny~ sorry hippo, you're cute. . .

i really don't do well with teacher that says "you're good" when deep down inside you did terrible and felt like it'd be better for you to bury your head on a freshly dig grave~ Gotjimal~ it makes you lazy~

Nothing's Over is playing in ma' head. . .why do they have to repeat their song so many times in a show? i'm still in BTD fever playing this song on forever reloop without sense of ever failing~
the dance is very nice~ their leader has mushy mushy hamster pouch cheek~

i miss my greedy hamsters who love to stuff corns inside their cheeks~ it's not like i'm not feeding you~! wae so cute T.T

omg~ wae T.T why so precious?!
p/s: not mine. . .mine only feed on seeds and corns~

bbyong~

Speaking 2 languages in a sentence because you're a multicultural bastard

2011-08-17T22:33:00.000+09:00

i'm a multicultural bastard, suck it up~
and one more good thing about living in a world next to Narnia is that we have to speak more than 2 languages in order to survive~
English, Malay, Cantonese, Mandarin, Japanese, Korean off different fluency level~despite everything, i was defeated because i can't read chinese to save my life~
so in order to suck it up, i'm looking for a competitor~

i seriously love overall~
here i present you the invasion of overalls on Kim Sunggyu~
sincerely thank stylist-nim for giving him this~~~~

this is not overall but i like this too~ he ran away with this. . .me like the rolled up sleeves~

Even though sesame player 2 is abt nothing but Infinite running away, i still think it's kinda nice to see them feeling guilty after committing a sin~ and. . .I'm still not sure if Sunggyu did open his eyes when the staff woke him up or not. . .mashimaro eyes, ah~ how cute~

considering that they only debuted a little over one year and are promoting in japan, i think they're gonna be as big as OT6 one day~ do well. . .shall go find BTD Japan version (if there's any) and Sunggyu's Japanese is awesomelicious~ i don't even care if they will come cuz i have no faith in our local event organizers~ suck it up, i'm going Sg to see them if there's a chance~

oh~ and i also like Gna's outfit during Black & White promo. . .the other day i saw some overall and i nearly died~

bbyong for now as i go listen to "please don't stay in my heart once you're gone~" on forever reloop without any sense of failing. . .

i like him because he's in charge of singing, his hobby is singing, his strength is singing and all he do is nothing but singing~ what an intro~
oh~ i like dudu because he was yelling "ah, my hand hurts~!!!!" at his members impatiently~
leadergyu also likes to yell at his members~ congratulation for getting the first #infiniteLeadergyu tag here in Rainbow Heaven~

when there's nothing to do

2011-08-15T22:26:00.000+09:00

nothing you should do and nothing you want to do (pt 02)
ah~ 중심 잘해
if it ain't the best, don't do it. . .don't even bother if you don't put heart in it~

Please don't stay in my heart once you're gone~
Kim Sunggyu's solo Because. . .
why do you have to sing Lucky~ totally love that song~
i also like Jason Mraz's Details in the Fabric~ but I'm Yours the most. . .
i saw them perform live before~ no wonder i have their songs
it was their first overseas performance~ 제 영광입니다 ^^
that was also my first time traveling overseas alone getting a chop on my own passport~

열심히하게~
(c) in the mist of spitting everything i know that i learn from every where~
the recent word i learn was 나무~

the heart is no longer there~ *sigh*

중심 잘해! 중심 잘해! 중심 잘해!

actually i didn't take it with my own free will~ hate this kind of stuffed feeling~ suffocating. . .

현승아 행복하세요

2011-08-13T21:03:00.001+09:00

i like your fresh faced & laid back look~

On stage you're B2uties & Honey's Hyunseung~
off stage, i'd like you to become just Jang Hyunseung~

if i see you someday walking on the street, i'll let you become just Jang Hyunseung
like any other normal human being you deserve some freedom away from screaming people, away from flashes of the camera just freedom to do what you want to do even with someone you like holding hands together walking on the street as Jang Hyunseung and not Beast Hyunseung~
현승아 행복하세요

#Ma'SadReality (c) fiction in fiction in fiction *sobz*

when there's nothing to do

2011-08-07T02:06:00.001+09:00

nothing you should do and nothing you wanted to do. . .
*sentences sounded awfully familiar and ain't gonna post a pic of ma' self cuz of many lazy reasons and dudu certainly won't creep in ma' pic which is kinda sad cuz i will never know him (c) the reality that i'm in~*
all i do is staring at photos of people's nose~ then. . .
typing all the korean i know in vain~
i think the best way to absorb stuff is to use it abusingly often, without sense of failing cuz once upon a time, everyone too abuses languages until ppl at school corrected them~
tell me how exactly as a baby do you learn to understand apple is a red juicy crunchy delicious roundish thing with an unedible stalk? i miss the time when the most difficult subject was writing~ my writing was so bad i had to practice it after school. . .the more i had to write the more i write it badly. . .and i also sucks in drawing cuz no one see my visions~ i tried to imitate abstract when they ask me to draw a house or something~
recently my hamster aren't tweeting. . .

hair is black~ although during 쇼크 era the hair is black and suit him with his uber piercing jet black eyeliner but i like the blond 자짱면 머리 mo'~ (c) his Jajjangmyeon blond meori will always and forever be my fav hairstyle~ 평생 도 언제나 (c) broken broken~

막내 도 같이

i will never stop asking 주란 to take 사진 together 요~ᄏᄏᄏ
car is fixed~ ^^

뿅~

i navigate the Junseung ship (pt 02)

2011-08-05T16:44:00.002+09:00

cruising with our Junseung~

i'm sorry Kikwang~
*clicku clicku* HERE
welcome to the whole new world of Junseung~ join tumblr for mo' Junseung pic~ i get all from there~
^^

where are you~?

2011-08-05T04:35:00.000+09:00

never loose yourself to the norm~
i read back some of my post and some of it is kinda funny~ *narcissist to no extend*
not that i'm not admitting it~ stuff written here are meant for future references~
and in one post i actually wrote about hitting those annoying divider cones~ *amused*
then in another post guessing who will die in another Korean drama~
i wanna abuse the language freely without getting stuck to the rules~

never settle at your level~
(c) always lives with random motivational-poii-ish stuff~

bbyong~

i'm gonna reveal the ugly name. . .

2011-08-03T01:03:00.005+09:00

FALiar. . .
in short for Fat Ass Liar, the person who is living a more delusional world than i am
cuz i'm only delusional for the like minded, this liar actually drag ppl into his hopelessly delusional world full with nothing but endless lies up until the point that i felt everything came out from his stinky mouth is ignorable~ (yes, it's like a dead animal just died in the mouth~ i'm not saying this out of hatred but it's the truth~ *shrugs*)
frankly i've been sick and tired hearing air talk by this person since the 3rd month~
how did i even survived all this while? being empty minded hoping for the day to come and ignoring all his air talk~
and the mind numbing construction that lasted what seemed to be forever~
if not i've already fried nakji for this person~

ALL IN FOR THE WIND
fits like catchphrase of my life~
if lying is a way you choose to live your life, that's fine. . .trust being betrayed, effort and guts being wasted~ all my friends was like asking me not to switch but i don't really wanna do what i've been doing that's why i choose to believe in this air company and switch to do something i like before i die despite the contract but in the end it's even worst than minimal wage work that draws people's breath away~

up until the very last day i had to deal with phoniness~ that ain't cool man~
i don't like beating round the bushes stuff~ can't you sense ma' sarcastic laugh when you're air talking again?
what's the point of telling me your fantasy, hopes and dream when i'm leaving? save it for yourself. . .you know what, your mind is probably lying to yourself~ puhahaa~ cuz you're always lying to me with no sense of failing~
been screwed a few times~ especially during event time and a no-show records of 100% after telling me "i'll be there"~ say wut? will appreciate more if you say "i won't come~ screw you"~

i really don't fancy ppl telling me stuff they don't mean at all. . .ain't amuse~
anyway, i'm always overwhelmed with joy thanks to Yong Junhyung despite looking expressionless~
putting in the same context, me always ranting doesn't mean anything at all~ i'm just sayin'

^ me, all day everyday~

in conclusion, that fat ass liar is nothing but a sayer~ say say say and nothing ever happens~
moral of the story, never be someone like that and never accept offer from desperate wannabie small startup insignificant inexperience google non-existence company~ wasting precious time they probably don't even care~ like an idiot going to a humanless company with internet that's even slower than dial up~ wtfuuuu~ something like that. . .
doer. . .shall stop talking about New Zealand for the time being. . .someday i wanna be like *throws pokeball* "i'm going NZ tomorrow~ bye biatch~" *takes ma' bags and fly disappearing into thin air*

suddenly~
ah~ i'm a bit sad for not being part of the group. . .it's okay, i ain't mad cuz i will do the same too~ i will not let myself being stepped over and sulk in the corner~
(c) it's true, Librans really enjoy plotting sweet revenge~ there is no revenge~ i can have fun too being out of the group. . .well, i'm not an idiot~ i get it from the choice of words, the hesitation and slow answer. . .it doesn't take a psychologist to figure that out~ and i'm taken back with the Korea stuff like being stab at the back. . .someday i will go see oppar myself~

the person who keep saying he is sunjeong nam when he's drunk. . .
he ate snow in NZ~!!! i'd like to try that someday. . .ppl might think it's sick but penguin eat ice too~ instead of calling him Tabi, i think i'm gonna call him Pingu~ hehee

bbyong~

EDIT~
i actually had another name for that FALiar~ it's actually from a song~ called Stupid Motherfucker wasting ma' time~ fits him 10 gazillion percent~
it's too vulgar~ but EDC is cool in this way. . .haters gonna hate~

the skeleton inside me screaming to come out turning into ashes

2011-07-31T00:27:00.003+09:00

calling for the rain to come
so the sound of the rain will make beats chasing away the surrounding silence~
bravo~ *clap clap* so dark~

Brightening stuff with MakiiQ~
calling for the rain to come before the heat sip away her enthusiasm in life~
1 - Your current obsession
death~ funeral~ after life~ nah. . .*just for the sake of today's theme* watch too many movies abt death. . .i'm always obsessed with being free smelling air in a foreign land~ or Jang Hyunseung's daily 4D tweets~ 4D never fail not to amuse meh~

2 - Your ultimate bias
"a chic person outside, but if you get closer with him, you’ll know that he’s a person with full of aegyo~" arienai~ i thought he was a cold person surrounded by coldness in life~
question i never stop asking. . .wae u live in Narnia?

3 - Your cutest bias
they're all cute in their own lil' way~

4 -Your bias with the best eye-smile ^ ^
Yoon Dudu~

5 - Your favourite lead vocal
~~Dinosaur~~ Jonghyun~ life is complete hearing him singing 'Missing you'~ i like this song a lot. . .dear ma' bias, please sing this song during radio show or something

6 - Your favourite maknae
Sohn Dongja~ i think he's the only magnae that didn't get ordered around by his hyungs but he's very sincere~ every now and then i'll hear dudu shouting impatiently towards him~ hehee so cute. . .

7 - Your favourite leader
Yoon Dudu~ the impatient yet caring leader of Beast. . .i like to see him shouting impatiently towards his member and get ignored~ hehee

8 - Your hottest bias
everyone is hawt when they're doing something they like. . .soccer, cooking, dancing. . .

9 - Your shyest bias
he's not my bias but i've never seen someone as tough looking as him to be a shy boy~ he's the untouchable joker of Beast~

10 - Your bias with the best abs
i've never seen donghae's or dudu's so i cannot judge~ but i think it's cute for dudu to wear fake abs during their concert cuz
- he didn't train or
- he don't wanna show~
i'd like to think the later one~ how cute~ *cough*Jang Hyunseung, don't keep flashing *cough*

bbyong

wae no study japanese deligently?!

2011-07-30T04:21:00.003+09:00

my (probably failed attempt) to romanjize and translate Beast Fiction *japanese version*
so beautifully written and sung T.T
subete ga uso no youni ,
wasurerareru kioku ,
kimi to hanareta koto wo ima mo~

I hope everything is not true,
I still can't let go of the memories being together with you even now.

owarasenai futari no story
hatenaku hajimaru story
itami hitasura title iena guru shiruo mete
egaku hajimari wa shiawase ni warau futari kuna
oredake no kimi teguchi no nai kono heya ni

our neverending story
becoming the beginning of a story
*dunno~ i'm guessing something like "turning the pain into something~"*
*dunno~ something like "the beginning of happiness smiling to each other?!*
i'm here all by myself in this room without your presence

atarimae no youni kisu shite
kimi kara wa hanarerarenakute (kute)
owari nanka jyanai

i'll give you a kiss for sure,
it's not yet the end since you won't be leaving me~

orewa mada (fiction in fiction in fiction)
kimi to mada (fiction in fiction in fiction)
owaranai monogatari mune ni egakukara
mou kimi wa (fiction in fiction in fiction)
hanasanai wow~ (fiction in fiction in fiction)
doushite kimi wa kokoni inai noni
futari e fiction

I haven't (fiction in fiction in fiction)
with you we haven't (fiction in fiction in fiction)
in my heart we're a neverending story *awwwwwwwwwwwwwww*
I'm not letting (fiction in fiction in fiction)
you go wow~ (fiction in fiction in fiction)
why aren't you here
in our fiction

ima kokoni shiawase na story
tada shiawase sonna futari no monogatari ga (kono mune ni wa)
aru yo mitasarete yuku yo
kake yotte kita kimi wo daite
ore wa souna kimi wo mo hanasanai (sanai~)
owari nanka jyanai yo

here's a happy story about us
I can see only happiness surrounding the two of us in the story (in this heart)
*dunno~ something like "i'll hold on to you"*
I won't ever let go of you~
because it's not the end~ *awwwwwwwwwwwwww*

orewa mada (fiction in fiction in fiction)
kimi to mata (fiction in fiction in fiction)
owaranai monogatari mune ni egaku kara
mou kimi wo (fiction in fiction in fiction)
hanasanai wow~ (fiction in fiction in fiction)
doushite kimi wa koko ni inai noni~
futari e fiction

I haven't (fiction in fiction in fiction)
with you we haven't (fiction in fiction in fiction)
in my heart we're a neverending story *awwwwwwwwwwwwwww*
I'm not letting (fiction in fiction in fiction)
you go wow~ (fiction in fiction in fiction)
why aren't you here
in our fiction

saigoni itaku te
kimi nara ore no sobani
iru to shinjiteru

I'll keep on believing that we will be together until the end~

(korean rap)

shiawase na monogatari
ore wa tada egaku dake
subete wa nozomi deshika nakute

I'm only creating happy stories
it's all i ever wanted. . .

shiawase no (fiction in fiction in fiction)
kimi no sobade (kimi no sobade) (fiction in fiction in fiction)
ima hajimaru (fiction in fiction in fiction)
owaranai story (fiction in fiction in fiction) yeah~

happiness (fiction in fiction in fiction)
together with you (together with you) (fiction in fiction in fiction)
it's the beginning (fiction in fiction in fiction)
of a neverending story (fiction in fiction in fiction) yeah~

there goes~ i never went for japanese class *uwaaah*

off songs~
recently discovered Muse's Unintended~ the melody is very nice and the lyrics is just *awwwwwww* if i'm not mistaken it's about a depressed person rediscovering the meaning of life thru love~ but my fav love song is none other than One Ok Rock's Living Dolls~
i don't go for 'barney style' love song~ ya' know all those "i heart u, u heart me, we are happy family" stuff~

bbyong~

hi hamster~

2011-07-28T00:30:00.003+09:00

(c) hamster pouch cheek~
that's the nickname for Hyunseung's cheek~

see?

my Junseung~ please stay together, forever~

oh why can't i sleep when i'm suppose to
why can't i wake up when i'm suppose to?
doesn't wanna sleep at night, doesn't wanna wake up in the morning
mainly cuz. . . *keep calm and wait 2 more days~*

bbyong~

acrophobia

2011-07-25T14:47:00.004+09:00

never-to-the-mind~ i'm acrophobia too~
Jang Hyunseung is afraid of height~
i used to think that he's fearless~ not scared of anything type~
seeing him that afraid of height makes him less fearless but still the fearless Jang Hyunseung~
but to the least i still dare to look down from the deck~
still very much wanna ride amusement park rides that will eventually gives my heart a good workout before and after plus, it will help to open up my voice too~~~ x).

MTV Stage Live~!!!
awesome~ i get to go into the pit next to the center one which is pretty close to the stage also~
i think someone from Cube filmed my Seungie uchiwa~
arghhhhh~ pls don't edit and put into some DVD unless Seungie will see it~ puhahaa~
*no idea what i wanna say* see the banner, not meh =.=;;;
i feel hot for Seungie on stage since he wore like 3-4 layers of clothes =.=;
and a hat~ i couldn't see his face but he was in a good mood keep on adding adlib while singing and dancing passionately (normally aren't like that~)
dudu is awesome too ^^ too bad they got cut off while doing intro~
and~ normally ppl will cheer for seobbie or kwang the most~
so i'm on the opposite n cheer for seungie which is pretty lonely~ poor ~~boy~~ me~ ss in own 4D world~

i'm down there swimming in the sea ~~of ppl~~~ and towards the end being sardined like tuna being caught by pukat tarik~
cheering for other bands with my beseuteu uchiwa~

but one of the most memorable experience i get from the show is how considerate (just a lil) the staff was~ towards the end we were dead so the organizer gave us some water and we're like sharing with total strangers~ everyone taking a sip like refugee~ it's not gross when you're dying of thirst~

i went to snow walk~!!! hand went itchy and grab some snow and it felt like i'm getting frostbite within 3-4 mins~ love the cold tho~ i wanna live in somewhere cold~
and the wind late at night feels like freedom on top of a mountain~ plus the night starry sky~ love driving on an empty highway in the middle of the night~ what am i doing here? this place don't like me and neither do i~ it's just drawing oxygen away frm my life leaving me lifeless, heartless, moodless, what-ever-the-ever less~

don't like being bounded in a place that seems forever wasting ma' youth hearing lies~ keep calm and wait 4 more days~ then a poor summer vacation. . .

little thing waiting for you~ *cough* nah~ just listening to the solo~ puhahaa~ rap part is cute to no extend~

bbyong. . .

this or that?

2011-07-23T03:37:00.005+09:00

in the middle of the night
tonight the sky is orangie~ couldn't see any stars and saw one plane~
love to stare at the wide sky in the middle of the night~
i just wash the car in the middle of the night~
someday i wanna sit on top of a rock facing the sea ~~and wait for ET to fly across the moon / peter pan to fly across the sky / shooting star shoot across the sky~~~

Just the genre that i'd watch~
If Hyunseung had the choice to choose a role in acting, he would choose the murdering role; killer.
good choice~ ppl know me knows very well that i do not watch korean dramas unless i had to (mostly cuz of job~ i'd like to forget my past *guilty of wasting youth* lowly paid, criticized to no extend for mistakes, tedious and mind numbing~)
but if Hyunseung will act as a psycho killer, i'll watch it~ probably cuz of the genre~
he'll be like this psycho delusional forensic student x serial killer with dual personality~
yes, i've been thinking abt this. . .i don't know if i can live to see~

*still guilty of wasting youth
but i'd like to sue the person who wasted other people's youth with empty promises and broad daylight cock talk~
sometimes i'm like invin-to-the-cible~

the person who keep complaining you can't fall asleep,
finally you're asleep~

but i have issues with this pic~
even though it's nice to see oppar so up close yet not personal but respect his private moment~
if you're taking his sleeping pic, keep it to yourself~
i'm saying contradicting things too since i'm putting it here T.T
at first i'm like "awwwww~ finally he's sleeping"
after that my mind changed. . .imagine you're the one sleeping and other ppl posted your ugly sleeping pic~ (not saying that he is ugly but i think my sleeping look is ugly although i never saw before) . . .and how can you possibly sleep for real like that~
sleep well~

tomorrow go see Beast~ one more schedule to go~

bbyong~

of this and that. . .

2011-07-21T22:54:00.000+09:00

i might die if i eat seafood
although it is true that tiny prawns can give no harm except for an itchy mouth
i don't even like the taste of prawn~
but there are some variety that gives me fish eyes (might not die from this but felt like digging a hole to bury my swollen head~)
and i'm only allergic to some shellfish from the sea~
there was once i had prawn noodles in some famous places in the forest it was okay~ the prawns is probably from ~~unsalt~~ freshwater~
still don't know how to differentiate shrimps and prawns and squid and octopus~
random in random in random (c) idea from fiction~

i actually won~!
i tried like half-heartedly over the past years to get my hands on MTV tickets but failed miserably because of the half-heartedness~ this year too i tried last minute and finally i won~!
score a date with Beast with my own luck*~
so now i'm listening to 30 seconds to mars (~~damn~~ the voice~!) and neon trees songs~
p/s: i actually have one pair extra that i'm giving away to strangers who wanted it as much as i do~ i'm not gonna be those corrupted ppl who wanna get a few bucks selling stuff that's free (maybe this is why i'm always broke) but i have my own principle~ i hope nobody buy their ticket and they will have to sulk it up because their hope to get some extra cash just evaporated into thin air~

but then again~
(c) living with a rational mind~
luck* is not a thing~ it is just a term ppl describe when good things happen in their life
and unlucky is just a term ppl describe when bad things happen~
nothing ever happens because of luck~ it just happen to happens~
don't be so superstitious cuz things don't really happen the way you want always~

omo~ Rakuten ship here~!!!
why i didn't find this out when i'm rich. . .when i had a job or whatever~
DHC stuff is not that expensive compared here
i think Acerola Lotion is like under RM20~ it's RM80 here~!!!
why do i live in Narnia?

One Ok Rock is back~
i love band~ they are always no.1 because they experiment with stuff~
sad that i now resides in a land next to Narnia and probably will never get to see them because i don't make tonnes of dondon~
if i have tonnes of dondon i want to be free in a foreign land~
probably cuz that's the only possible way for us, living next to Narnia~
i'm eating jelly everytime i saw ppl posting pic when they're there~
the land of the Rings~ it's pwetty T.T

Jang Hyunseung, let's meet again~

it's 5am~

2011-07-18T05:53:00.001+09:00

i'm still awake~
i think i always had a lot of sleep (like 7-8 hours or moar on a daily basis since forever and ever)
so it's really not a problem for me to stay awake~
there was once i stay awake for more than one day and still feeling fly~ *prob abuse too much caffeine*
anyway, one day i had a cup of caramel machiato and my head were about to explode~
from then on i don't think i want anymore caramel machiato~

Greediness to no extend~
i'm gonna be my normal mean self and put my least fav member there instead of saying none cuz anyway, anyhow someone going to take the last place in my list, right?

Beast: the precious group~
Favorite Member: Yoon Doojoon
Least Favorite Member: Yong Junhyung~
Prettiest Member: Jang Hyunseung (he's going to hate this title)
Member I Wanna Marry: Jang Hyunseung (wae u live in Narnia? wae not dudu?)
Member I Wanna Be Best Friends With: Jang Hyunseung~ (a bff hubby~ wouldn't that be nice? i need to wakeup~ wake up~ wake up~~~)
Favorite Pairing: Junseung~!
Unpopular Opinion: i like them because they are real...i hope that no matter where they get to in future, never losses your heart in whatever you're doing~

DBSK: Always keep the faith baby~ *shameless*
Favorite Member: Kim Jaejoong
Least Favorite Member: Shim Changmin
Prettiest Member: Kim Jaejoong~
Member I Wanna Marry: Kim Jaejoong
Member I Wanna Be Best Friends With: Kim Junsu~ (oyaji gag~!!!)
Favorite Pairing: Junsu x Changmin who keep on fighting with each other~
Unpopular Opinion: JYJ coming out is not abt the money~ they are just tired of being used~

Big Bang: i'm fine, thank you and you?
Favorite Member: Taeyang
Least Favorite Member: Daesung
Prettiest Member: Seungri
Member I Wanna Marry: TOP (puhahaa~ because he's 4D and he's B~)
Member I Wanna Be Best Friends With: GDragon
Favorite Pairing: Tom & Jerry~
Unpopular Opinion: too overrated? mian Big Bang~ love your songs though~

Block B: New kids on the block, give them some love~
Favorite Member: Zico~
Least Favorite Member: Jaehyo (i don't like flower~ lolz)
Prettiest Member: Jaehyo~
Member I Wanna Marry: . . . no one~ if i had to choose then B-bomb~
Member I Wanna Be Best Friends With: Zico~ (so bright and youthful~)
Favorite Pairing: Zikyung~ U-bomb~
Unpopular Opinion: it's kinda tough coming out from a small company (ie not Big 3) especially with those antis that are kinda blinded with their oppa~ they need to be more open minded when it comes to music~ who say only certain group can make hip hop beats?

why are you reading this?

here's some nice random pic i clicked randomly in my computer
seems a lil' hyunseung overload~ i just realize i had a lot of HS biased blogs~

hi dudu~

Hyunseung that doesn't wanna move after 2 showcases and 0 sleep~

please let me die~ T.T

lost tourist in Japan~

FM in Singapore? HS did the same in Malaysia too~ your 4Dness never fail not to amuse meh~

edit//
the day i slept for 4 hrs *uwaaaaaah~*
this morning my dentist called me up and ask me go to the clinic 'right now'
btw the clinic is just 10 mins away~
i am pretty sure i went out half awake~ and they make me wait an hr watching cartoon~
why? and i'm pretty sure Jang Hyunseung troll in my dream~
don't ever hold your royal hand up in front of me again or i'll. . .*break it* jkjk~

bbyong~

u jelly?

2011-07-16T22:30:00.001+09:00

fanboys probably get jelly~
today when i was in the middle of a huge mind numbing traffic jam, i saw Liverpool FC bus cruising by~ (yup, with the players inside~)
wae i never get to see oppar cruising by?
actually there was once~ technically there was once Beast sorta walk past me when i was sitting on the sofa like a boss minding my own business and ninja peeking at them~
i remember seeing Kikwang, Yoseob (and probably Hyunseung) then Junhyung and Dudu on the other side~
now i can only see them from far far away~ *sobz* well. . .do well~

doer or sayer?
are you a doer or just a sayer?
i'm more of a doer and say very less abt what i'm abt to do except for my dream to go backpack *sobz* send me to tears cuz i couldn't do it now~ damn. . .
anyway i just wanna talk abt ppl and their wishes~
i've seen a lot of ppl talking craps abt this and that hu and ha but in the end it's just airrrr~ stop polluting the air with your stinky breath~
maybe this is why i don't really feel like posting my 'wishlist' or stuff i want and flooding ppl's wall~ currently am annoyed cuz ma' wall is flooded with stuff ppl want~ srly?!

below is a snippet of unpublished meme~
13. Three things I want right now.
- ~~Jang Hyunseung~~ *cough* Seungie is not a thing~!!!
- Airplane ticket to New Zealand~
- Sitting outside an Al-fresco cafe breathing in foreign air snapping photos of life~ *no idea which part is thing but i want*
- *still* Jang Hyunseung (cuz i can't think of another thing i want)

wae?! T.T i don't know what i want~ at times get jelly. . .keep calm and breathe~

bbyong

stop being grumpy~

2011-07-12T17:07:00.004+09:00

but then my msn icon pic is grumpy~

can you feel the blast of ma' sarcasm?
that's how i felt day in and out. . .the expression of 'oh rly?'

JuRan~

~~to the disappointment of ma' eyes,~~ no, they're not holding hands~
introducing JuRan~~~ aka Junseung all around the world but in Korea
they also call them YongHyun~ they look like twins *0*
when i was a noob i really thought they are the same person~

i have vague memories of Jang Hyunseung before i saw this~
why do they treat him like this? poor thing~
that's why i'll always cheer for him after that~
perhaps i really did ignored him during the fansign~
mian but you ignored me once too so we're even~ lolz

how he ignored meh~
p/s: i find it rather amusing~
in Singapore because i was holding 2pm light stick and he was like looking at me for 5 second then looks away with strangely cold & scary stares~ i will always remember~ lol~ boy, so picky~

i even gave him a random gift in Singapore~ Seobbie took it though~ (ppl with the name Seob tend to take gift from me~ Kiseop and Yoseop~ lolz *gomawoyong*)

*sidetrack* rather than being like that bish who blogged that she is disappointed cuz that (quote her) 'bastard' ignored her and she's hurt, i just wanna say, bish, he's not a clown~ *slash-sidetrack*

he's very good with his fans~ after i had a bribe board with me, he's always looking at it~

or i think he's looking at it cuz it's always a delusional world that i'm in~

Hyunseung ah,

~~nuna~~ fans love you~

Cole ~~nuna~~~

p/s: i really prefer Cole over Nic~ cuz this world is drowned by Nic~ even if Cole is technically a dude's name but who cares. . .*lives in own world* nobody really calls me Cole~ cuz ppl can't pronounce Maki, i ended up using a general name~ but a lot of ppl calls me Maki~ dun really know the heck i wanna say~

4D world experimentation

how i wish i can draw ~~so i can make ask4dSeungie tumblr~~ *sobz*~

what i wish moar is for a spanking new laptop fully loaded with music softwares~

run Rancho, run~! nae Ran ran off to Japan, enjoys eating pickles~
your favorite food is PICKLES?! the yellow thing u eat before main meal?!
sometimes i keep on anticipating stuff coming from your 4D world~

^ no idea~ it was drafted since a few days ago~

very often stuff are written on different days with different mood etc~ stuff that's all over the place, at times has nothing to do with ma' life but i just wanna type~ FML~

a burst of body gags~

i'm amazed with the enthusiasm~ recently watching 2PM Show~

i would rather watch variety show than drama even those ft ppl i barely know~

like Sesame player Season 2 ft infinite~

so different from MBLAQ version cuz instead of random games, their theme is running away~

2PM show is really a burst of body gags~ poor Taec & Chansung~

MTV Match Up is kinda nice too~

Lucid dream
apparently you can control your dream
it's something like closing your eyes and lie on the bed for 20-30 mins without moving your body so your body will be duped into thinking that you're sleeping but then you have to stay awake~
after that when u open your eyes, you can't really move your body and you can have full control of your dreams~
but nah, it won't work for me cuz i ended up dozing off to lalaland for real~ without fail unless i'm having some down time that i can't sleep which is rare and will drive me crazy~

there was one period i keep on waking up being paralyzed with 'alien light' beaming from the door~ it freak the hell out of me cuz i only see lights coming from the door and sound but can't really move my body and my teeth felt weird~ =.=; then slowly dozing off despite feeling scared~
that time i wasn't happy~

bbyong. . .

maware maware merry go round~

2011-07-12T00:37:00.002+09:00

last week learning. . .
old skool~ yup i know it's damn~

the week before i took the ferris wheel~ o.O;
felt like pushing all the air in my lungs out in a high pitch scream~
but ma' friends were chilling and say "you better shut up~"
so i swallow back the air and hold on to the metal for my undear life~
even hold the arm of ma' poor friend cuz i was freaking out especially the first round and dangling on top~ but still have the heart to pose for pics 3 storeys high~
with heart that's tiny like bacteria, i want to try skydiving someday~
even if it might kill my non-existence heart when it comes to height~
i am very afraid of height~ i'm not like this in other stuff though~
i still wanna try skydiving~ 13000 ft or 16500ft? the differences is 25 more seconds of thrill~ probably will die~ probably will. . .but i'm not gonna let my height phobia stop me from scaring the crap out of myself. . .this is human~

why do you live in Narnia ver forever-and-ever-unanswered-Q

2011-07-10T23:38:00.000+09:00

i'm gonna roll to a furball facing the corner of the walls and reflect~
i don't even have fur~ OTL

welcome to the 4D world~ it's a neverending wonder everyday~
which explains why my mind can't really calm down~
i can't sit and concentrate on playing something. . .so i'm here~ now i'ma gonna bounce back and continue practicing~

bbyong~

delusional

2011-07-10T02:59:00.004+09:00

Captain, welcome back onboard~
Junseung ship never sank~
we just turn to a submarine and submerge into a brand new world under the sea~
see what happen in the FM in Thailand~ Junseung is back~ *woohoo*
*slash-delusional*

the bg music of the game being played. . .
i had no idea what game and have no intention to find out~
. . .reminds me of Dexter
why do you make me wait until September for the new season T.T
Dexter is nice except for the bitchy relationship dramas between the characters~

Meme time~
my fave bias
JJ, Dudu, Donghae, Taeyang, Zico~
(c) once my bias, forever my bias list, let's welcome Zico onboard~ *sigh, this human~*

my fave female bias
G.na, Park Bom

my first K-Pop Crush
Kim Jaejoong~ the voice and those sad song he sung~ this boy is so emo~

my first K-Pop video
Don't Don. . .

my fave group
Beast, Block B, DBSK, Big Bang, SJ~ *Beast 1st~ here's one for the big shot companies who think it isn't worth promoting your artist here in my small country~ i like how Cube took the risk and send them here~ Beast 1st FM was the best FM i ever attended~ Cube really does know how to market and promote their artist~*

a personal secret
my right eye is plastic~~~!!!
i has been 5 months and you can see a flood of selcas as a result~

something I regret
not saving money~ if not i probably fired that FALiar or are living in a foreign world~ save now. . .save now T.T

something I like
looking at the sky at night~

something I hate
being annoyed~

my 5 favorite songs
- In this Diary (The Ataris)
- Living Dolls (One ok Rock)
- Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer (One Ok Rock)
- My Everything (98 degree / Cover by Donghae / Cover by Hyunseung)
- Love in the Ice (DBSK)

the reason behind my URL
blogspot: rainbow-heaven~ i love colors~
tumblr: *keeping it ninja*~ first word inspired by Hyunseung cuz he's a cold person, 2nd letter is frm ma' name~ third letter is just came randomly~

my favorite show
Criminal Minds, Survivor, Dexter, ANTM~

my favorite OTP
Eunhae vs. Junseung~

a turn off
dirty person with no personal hygiene~

a turn on
hot-cold person~ lolz. . .those that doesn't look like they are caring but deep down inside they care a lot abt chuuuu~ *awwwwww~ sadly the said type of person isn't anywhere near my radar~* *this shameless human*

the reason I did this
celebrating the return of the captain of my ship~ lolz *sipping Caramel Teacino* the taste of caramel brings happiness~ not to me but to my Seungie~ kekee OTL the forever alone human~

let's embrace the freedom for now~~~

p/s: after observing what's happening and the hypocrisy of the people, i'm gonna find one fine day to register myself as a voter and cast my golden ticket for a change~

why all of a sudden i'm tweet tweet-ing in korean?

2011-07-09T01:34:00.004+09:00

i'm treating you as my guinea pig
because you're growing hamster pouch on your cheek again~ *weeee*
*delusional*someday you will reply meh*slash-delusional*
someone from Thailand read this blog, i assume you're stalking only to be disappointed that stuff i talk abt are hard to understand even to fellow human~ because i love living in ninja world and speaks alien languages~
and i do talk a lot about ~~you~~ Jang Hyunseung. . .this guy need some love~ i'm giving him some of my ninja love~ *throws flying dagger*

mad~
yesterday i had the soundest sleep ever since forever cuz i'm back to ma' room after they took forever to finish renovating my room~
what i'm mad is that i spend hours cleaning the dust in my room and today it's dusty again~ the living room is dusty, my desktop is dusty, the stuff i properly covered is dusty... it's back to dirt hole again~
don't you have brain?
particularly hate it inside out, outside in when they come on weekend~ =.=;
and they didn't even lock the main door~! *speechless*

don't know why i like this pic a lot. . .

attentive and eerie-ly looks like someone i know but i can't remember who~
he just look so familiar yet i can't remember who~ OTL brain, stop this~

from the very beginning since i ever remember him as a person, he always looks familiar but i can't remember who he looks like~ 당신의 누구 세요?

tired~
hate cleaning but freedom is near if i finish it as soon as possible~ =.=;
i had a leopard + zebra + cheetah + tiger print bed sheet (all in one~!)~ arienai~
Jang Hyunseung must have love that alot~ but nah. . . it's a cute version of those funky prints~
i don't like animal prints~ i didn't even buy those~ but i use it anyway cuz it's a cute version*

*very important remark~ i don't like funky animal prints~

bbyong~

seeing oppa on TV~

2011-07-08T01:32:00.002+09:00

it's a whole new world~
a new fantastic point of view *cough*wae disney?!*fin-cough-ing*
my friend gave me a DVD with Beast perf (gomawayong~)
uwaah~ it's a lil' different watching the performances on TV~
then i even tried tubing with PS3 (noob to no extend~!)
i no longer have any interest in watching TV after E.U ended~
ppl might assume that i'll watch k-drama or k-variety shows on tv
but when did i live my life to be predictable?
never~

never pt 2~
i've already had the layout of my room planned in my head for ages~
now there's this stranger say it ain't good~
it's like mourning corpse~ say wut?
mourning corpse or not it's my room~ what if i like?
i just wanna see the stars at night~ T.T
u think i won't drag those stuff on my own?

living dolls~
T.T
i will never like dolls anymore~ you are a doll. . . u never know who i am~ i never get to know you for real~ bbye~
bbye bubble gum~
very often it's not your fault but the ppl around me who keep on putting labels i hate~

time for some real music~ i reckon One Ok Rock~
they point out lil' stuff one may overlook in life . . .deep~ i like to be enlightened~
OOR's Re:Make / No Scared coming out next week~

maybe there's one incy bitsy exception~

bbyong~

Goodbye Happiness~

2011-07-06T01:58:00.002+09:00

The last 18 days of my life. . .
I'm going to do a 30 days challenge then~
my 30 days challenge won't ever end~

i'm just tired~

for those who stumble upon this blog looking for Jang Hyunseung's pic

2011-07-05T03:22:00.000+09:00

you should join tumblr~
it's a brand new world there...
search Hyunseung tumblr and start following peeps there~
who knows, maybe you will discover my ninja tumblr acc~
i reblog beast (*cough*Junseung*cough*), block b and occasionally big bang stuff

and you're welcome x).

what on earth~?!

2011-07-03T02:24:00.002+09:00

apa dalam dunia~?!

i felt bad i keep on flashing Hyunseung's banner~ mian dudu~

i am back from fic-land~
this morning i woke up to a very heavy yet empty heart~
it's like someone just drilled a hole in my heart~
depressing aura floating all around me. . .

fic-land story~
awesome~! a very-all-over-the-places summary~
during Beautiful, dudu came to the right side and saw ma' banner (puhahaaa~) then he look at me and went high high~ something like *nod* i-see-you-yoonique~!

i felt that Hyunseung wasn't that happy during the show so i flash a lot of Seungie's side (mian, dudu~).

conspiracy on Junhyung: i think he was thinking "what is up with this delusional girl, switching banner every 5 seconds" (lolz~ he was staring at my side. . .) i think he secretly like my Seungie banner~ *end of conspiracy*

Dongwoon is very active and spit out random english~ "come on baby", "follow me baby", "i love you" lolz~ Dudu was very high and active throughout the show. Yoseob is very nice to the lucky fan even after knowing that she was Junhyung's fan~ his high pitched "Joker, JOker, JOKER?!" was very funny~ Kikwang was spaced out and Junhyung look reserved and rumors has it, he cried~ boy must face a lot of difficulties after the news surfaced. . .

the other BM words that Beast know aside from basic intro was names of food~ so nice to know that they actually tried local food instead of being picky with their food...dudu said "durian" (lolz~!) dongwoon said "satay" yoseob said "laksa" then hyunseung who never pay attention to his surrounding said "laksa" 1-2 mins later~

Seungie was spacing out looking at my side during the mc session and i was delusional and keep on showing him thumbs up~ and waves. . .he stared at the space for 5 mins then snap, changes angle and after 5 mins came back to my side~ staring again at ma' direction while i keep on showing him thumbs up~ lolz

like i said before, Seungie is very nice to Honeys he was standing at my side a lot of the time *cough* and particularly during Oasis where everyone was going everywhere, Seungie stand on the right side for half of the song~ he walk out during his part and stand right in front of me *delusional* but angle never fail me~ it was right in front~ Oasis was my favorite song~

again, Seungie was on the right side most of the time~ fanservicing ma' banner *i can't help but to be delusional* especially during encore. . .VIU~ 4D dance~

Seungie is very 4D *duh* when other people was performing, he used his mic to comb his hair (bet ya' didn't think i'll be looking at you instead of the guest eh?) then drifted to space~ he use a marker to color his shoes and think it's very amusing telling Kikwang~ and his face palm way to look at the crowds~ why do you exist in another world?

this time i really pay attention to Seungie's dance during the show~ very energetic and precise up to the point that when they were performing Fiction, i had the urge to learn the dance that moment~ it was Beautiful *crying rainbow colored tears*

when they were performing Rainy Day, i felt that Seungie was really sad deep inside~ *awwww~* why are you sad. . .you make me wanna switch bias~ Dudu has a lot of fans but Seungie doesn't~

i do talk a lot about Seungie. . .i felt sad for this guy cuz i know how it felt like to be ignored~ that's why his place is ninja~ he receive the least gift too *awwww* fear not, one of it is mine with a custom made name label that looks exactly like my bribeboard~ i sorta designed this bribeboard and has its signature (you know me~ puhahaa~)~ ~~if your memory is good, you probably seen it a few times, Jang Hyunseung~~. . .

and you were happy again. . .?
after seeing the twitpic above~ hehee. . .
my first reaction when i saw that pic was "what on earth?!" // "apa dalam dunia?!"
he said dudu came by cutely~ lolz
또 봐요

the language~
recently learning random stuff yo. . .OTL
자장면 머리 보고싶어요~ this she wrote to Seungie~

bbyong. . .

stuff that are suppose to happen ain't happening

2011-06-29T16:36:00.003+09:00

what's the point of taking the risk?
i left that for nothingness~
i was suppose to leave for a shooting abroad~
sounds too good to be truth eh?
exactly~ more to come. . .

the ship is sinking~
awwww~ i will go down with the ship cuz it'll magically transform into a submarine~
under the sea is a brand new world~
i always like 'being' under the sea but it's kinda scary at times cuz i'm scared of imaginary sharks

i don't support rally but don't support dictatorship either
you know how much i hated rally?
there was once because of them i stuck in the jam for 5 hours~!
5 hrs can bring me to Singapore~
not only other people's precious time is wasted but imagine how much money is wasted;- petrol, ppl missing their appointments, precious time~! time~!! time~!!!
rally is nothing but a waste of other people's time~
yes, you want a change but maybe for a change why don't you do something else~

and as for peeps who tried to stop them before anything is happening is just like dictatorship~ i'm so tired of the ways they stop ppl from voicing out what they want just because they are corrupted. if you did nothing wrong, you have nothing to be afraid off and ppl will keep on supporting you~

there won't be any changes if they keep on fighting with each other and not working together~
keep an open mind and try not to drag other ppl down just because they can come out with superb idea and stop being jelly~ these ppl must live in a hole all these while with their loyalty to ma' group mentality~ what's the point of working against each other when you should be working for meh?!

yup, everything is related to me~ i don't pay 50 mil for you to breathe air and tell me fancy stories~ we need actual peeps who lived a normal ordinary middle class life that has been through real hardship to come out with mind blowing ideas to build this place and get rid of some old junks~ ooops~ imagine, real people don't get 5k for their parking allowance~ where did u even park your car? =.=; i respect the Jap CEO who took public transport to work and wouldn't mind having a pay cut~ we need at least 50 of these ppl for the change~

this ship is sinking too~ am i destined to live under the sea~ i like sea~ especially East Sea~ puhahaa~ ah i miss his blonde hair and seeing him dancing his heart out~
i remember the first time i saw him, i mistaken Hyukkie as him~ my fail~ but i really like Eunhae~ bfffff to no limits. . .

bbyong~

2011-06-27T01:49:00.002+09:00

today the mood is rather gloomy~
write lyrics peeps, write em' all out as lyrics~

i'm not a fan
*cough*i'm the fake wife*cough*
kyakyaa~ why so serious?
i have a fake darling in Beast and he ain't my bias~

it's really a mystery, mystery (please) mystery, mystery (don't) mystery, mystery (ask) mystery, mystery (wae)~ *insert random rap*

but seriously there was once i thought the same seems like love ain't for me. . .
guess who say the same thing? yup, that forever alone kid. . .*although sigh*

imagine one day you have to consider that other person's feeling before doing anything~
until you lost that freedom, enjoy it now~
also, wouldn't it be weird to date someone you're not close with? i'm all awkward OTL

this beautiful quote is from tumblr
in which i will dedicate to my 'beautiful sailor'

“I will continue with this ship. Even though we’ve already lost the captain. I can’t leave my beautiful sailor alone, calling for rain to come so no one can see his tears.”
(suddenly felt so epic-ish)

i recently jumped a few chapters in a book that took me forever to finish and it brought me to something related to medieval age~ Spartan. . .those people really did leave weak babies to die~ (i wanted to talk about explorers but my mind went to Spartan instead~ stuff get interlinked~ if given the opportunities, i would like to create the storyline of an uncategorizable drama that seems all logical but actually it's all fiction in fiction in fiction~)

illiterate but not quite illiterate~
one day i found an awesome way to listen to chinese text~
using the same method, i can now listen to asian language~
because kanji gives me a headache and i'm slow in korean~

@doublev89 *포크스* 잘 자고? 말레이시아에서 만나요 금요일~~~ have fun~
everything is all over the place. . .this on queue~

bbyong~ OTL

5 more weeks~

2011-06-26T13:47:00.001+09:00

to be exact, 24 more f-ing days~
*crying rainbow colored tears of joy*
a few good thing is happening~
1. after what felt like to be forever, finally (hopefully) the renovation is about to come to an end although not quite yet cuz i only see the tiles lying on the front porch without human laying them on the floor~ it's a mind numbing 3-4 months affair of living in a ditch-like-condition~

2. 24 more f-ing days~ if it's not for no.1, i've probably call it off a long long time ago~ more on this to come...probably on 28th July 2011~ it's good to spit things that has been clogging your mind~ if you bottle things up, someday you'll explode and that person ain't gonna care~

3. i'm going to see Beast next friday *woohooo* i wish i can see them 365 times a year~ *greediness to no extend, tsktskk* well, i'm glad i get good ticks, a good friend and one whole day to selca and have fun~

4. found a site that sell studs~! zomg~ i'll have some free time, one spanking brand 'new' room (freshly painted green colored walls, windows where i can see stars at night and new polished tilesssssss~) and to give it a new touch, i'm gonna create my own galaxy with glow in the dark stars~

a delusional kid~
when i was cleaning up stuff, i saw my english mid-term paper from high school~
i couldn't bare to read it properly cuz it was bad~
i remember there was once i finally figure out my english was bad and start to read the newspaper out loud (like literally)~
i couldn't spell a lot of funky sophisticated sounding words too~

it's like a joke ppl keep saying my english is good when i know it ain't up to what i want it to be yet~
i can just cheat on the pronunciation cuz i grew up learning 'alien' language~
alien here means something that is not spoken at home~
something like learning how to speak again in another language~
recently i saw a malay family speaking to each other in english~ it's a rare sight but it's nice to train em' young~

Seungie's ideal place to date is a bowling alley~
who love bowling i wonder~ *cough*
did Junseung went to play bowling together?
victory hug eh? *me gusta*
they are so cute together~ ^^

Jang Hyunseung is very good with 'honeys'
aka his fans~
i'm impressed that a usually cold person can be that nice~
instead of ignoring, he took the letter with his mouth even if he don't have a free hand to take it *awwwwwww*
but he is only nice to his fans~ puhahaa~ i know it well enough to say so~

perhaps there's warmness in the world but i couldn't feel at all~

recently i was chatting with someone i'm not that close with but it felt nice to be speaking with human~ *bleh* how did i end up in that black hole? i took the risk but with no return~ July 28, 2011~ there is nothing but lies in that place which in return makes me felt that this world is fake and cold~

jaak, next friday i will yeolshimihage flash the bribeboard~ kyakyaa~
bbyong~

how do i unfollow myself?

2011-06-24T22:12:00.000+09:00

i so wanted to unfollow myself in my blog
one day my acc was hacked (and here i am acting like a boss like nothing ever happens, no shiatz was given~ i just change my pw and it's all mine again, u mad?)
i'm sorry to those who click on the link the spammer sent~ (niwayz, no one important on the list cuz i don't keep contact list~)

don't sell me stuff you get for free
are you an idiot for taking me as an idiot?
like seriously you expect to rake some monies for something you get from lucky draw?
seriously this is corrupted~ there was once someone i know approach me and ask if i wanna buy the pass to become a worker (seriously? why do i wanna pay to work? i rather doll up to see my oppa~) i cannot support this kind of corrupted people~
if i have extra tickets, i will give it out for free, no questions asked as long as you're a fan~ (and i did what i said here...cuz that time i had VIP ticks *self-fan*)
that's why i won't be rich~ *sad* lolz... i just wanna see the world and breathe in some fresh air in a foreign land while trippin'
it was a big issue for me during one concert when i saw 'complimentary' yet i paid every single cent~
i'm against greedy peeps who make money that my oppa doesn't get~

forever slow, do we live in a hole

2011-06-21T23:42:00.002+09:00

or you think the people live in the hole?
anyway, i'm *tsk-ing* people who are doing stuff they had little knowledge off~
view me as just another 'fan' but i ain't no dumb fan that acc to the label 'support just every group'
what a dumb statement but i ain't mad. . .

and there's a very clear line between work and not work to me personally as a human~
i think stressing over work after working hrs is just bad for your mental health~
i don't even bother to promote my company's fb page to ppl~
cuz i'm that separated. . .
honestly speaking, i don't even like to use my real fb as admin~
would rather create one to help you update~
this for one, marks that i'm that different from your typical employee~
unless i work for an awesome company, it'll forever remain as 'nino'~
are you dumb? i like my ninja freesoul status~ (at least ninja from employers)

and that request is work related. . . i will only like it personally and spreading it?
*am laughing* this time i choose not to do the favor~ u mad?
although i'd be glad to help but nah~ *kindly refer to para 2*

can't blame me...

recently there has been wars between pages~
but truthfully speaking, the admin of site2 is a lil' gay~
care too much abt how many ppl join since when, what time bla and ha~
i've seen the same damn link being posted 2-3 times minimum just to 'prove' that it's right~
i get it, now let's move on already~
this is one of the habit created by social medias, make ppl crave for attention
like tumblr for example, i find it annoying that ppl keep updating stuff like "2 ppl unfollow me"
bleh~

i don't care. . . cuz i'm choosily ignorant to the world~
i think ppl should learn how to ignore...

ah~ right now i wanna look for someone to escape from this part of the world~
escaping period: 6-9 months living under probably harsh environment but with the mentality of road trips~ (yerrrrrrr~ am dying)
ppl: prefer friends. . .last resort is a complete stranger~ cuz recently i found out that i ain't wanted...rather than feeling unwanted, i rather look for ppl who actually wanna have fun with meh~
things to do: extreme and harsh~ camping, sleep in the car, roadtrip, roadtrip, ROADTRIP~!!!

Bring it on~
one wonders when only she can take the long 14 hours flight~ *sobz*
i should go practice English~ kyakyaaa~

people who lives in their own world

2011-06-19T00:07:00.003+09:00

the story about being annoyed while walking on the street
warning: stray away while i'm being nice because one day someway somehow i will
1) take and throw it on the floor of the other side~
2) tear the f-ing paper into 2 pieces just like the way u want but in the middle
3) tell you i'm a cop
4) after u told me i won i'll call my alleged father who is a cop
5) conning you with stuff like "i'm the daughter of your boss. . . work hard~"
6) straight away tell you the modus operandi~ after i tear this and if it says that i won something very f-ing expensive you will ask me to go to your office to claim and in order to claim for an even bigger prize, i will need to pay you some deposit~ then in the end i take home some cheap stuff~ right???

do i look like i'm a dumb, greedy and vulnerable human to you?
do i look like i don't read a lot of news and lives under the sea?
do i look like i don't like edisi siasat (damn love this show~)?
do i look like i don't like 999 (tv3 crime related prog) ?
do i look like i don't kill? (false alarm~ just the mere thought of cutting frog makes my feet jelly~ i can't even touch raw dead animals~)

today when i was walking towards the kl sentral lrt station a bunch of these ppl passing coupons and it's so annoying~
this dude keep on pushing that coupon to me and ask me to take while i was ignoring him then i thought after i take it he will leave~ i really wanted to throw it on the other side after taking~ but that will be littering...then he keep on asking me to open then i throw back to him~
he is f-ing annoying~ how can such people exist? i am allergic to annoyance~

the story of i'm invincible~
o.O; that's why i don't like to go out in a group of 3~

the story of monthly toothache~
this month's tightening was pretty funky~
picture layer of elastic within elastic stretches over 2-3 tooth~
personally i wouldn't mind if the bottom jaw weren't fixed at all, i like the odd V shape~
i just need to fix the upper jaw cuz i couldn't bite with my front teeth since forever...*sound sad*
this month is orange~ *cough*

the story of halo~ halo~ halo~ halo~
"raise your hands if you hating me~ halo
raise your hands if you envy me~ halo
raise your hands if you catching me~ halo~
halo~ halo~ halo~ halo~"
ah the breath of new fresh melody in my ears~
there's two Bs' in Block B~ people who lives in their own world, nothing much matters but the stuff that matters~

do well . . . bbyong~

2011-06-17T16:20:00.003+09:00

the story about dream invasion...
あたしの夢中でようこうそうけど。。。
it was only at the first level...
me sitting in a white room breathing air, wasting time wandering while looking at Zico walking across the room in front of me drawing something~ then he sat next to me asking me to look at his incredibly artsy artsy sketch of a sketch within a sketch then he saw my pencil and ask if he can use it. . .i smiled and say yeah~ then i was 'kicked' by Hyunseung's "ireohna x3" and snooze i press then off i dwell to another dimension~
one wonders how can someone really fall asleep even in 5-10 minutes without sense of failing?
i sleep while i can cuz i heard older ppl can't sleep very well ne~ this fact is saddening...
will i ever hate hyunseung for waking me up every weekdays?!

the story about everyday life...
phase 1. connect, sign in, disconnect. . .continue with phase 2
phase 2. re-connect, auto sign-in, disconnect. . .x countless times until reaches phase 3
phase 3. re-connect, got barred (!), sms, re-connected. . .repeat phase 2

seriously, even i will get sick of signing in~ cut it off...

the story about friends only when i need chuu...
anyway, i ain't mad and no moar info will be given~ puhahaa...

the story about the country that once i was proud off...
truthfully, i have always been proud of my multiracial country when i first learn about it in moral class in elementary school...i never notice any differences with my classmates cuz to me they're just normal people...they're all my friends~
it was from the media and the mouth of politicians that i learn the true meaning of racial differences~ but that doesn't mean i should change my view... never settle at your level~ (c) definitely from a song~ kekee
taking care of your roots is important but at the same time you cannot deny our existence~ since we were born here like you (but with different ancestors, i don't think all the ancestors fight in the war anyway~) doesn't means we don't entitle the same stuff~ but i've survived all these years without any privilege anyway... i don't leech~

before this i was still thinking abt supporting them just for the sake of the stuff they did all these years~ but corruption is everywhere and it's ridiculous~ why do you need so much money? if you get a new car, will it bring your further than the car you had now~ (but i do aware why~ the temptation being under the spotlight, high status and fame~) are you enjoying life having jaw dropping figures in your bank while having to lead an incredibly stressful life?

geez, i so wanna work in anti corruption agency~ i hate people who leech from others and those that need to be spoon fed, those who love easy way out~ let me find ways~

but that doesn't mean i am supporting the opposition cuz my state is being ruled by the opposition, i don't see any changes~ vote for the change my arsh~ all i see is those ppl attending this launch, that launch, get more camera time with 'no comment'... ?! more time wasting reporting abt their defamation sue~ sue this sue that~ what the heck does the outcome has anything to do to me? if you win, only your pocket will grow larger~ no? will you donate 90% as tax? heck no~ am i right?
i think the only true way to judge if a politician is doing their job is to monitor the stuff they did for your area etc etc~ not based solely on the party~ parties, they're like dramas~ same old story being told over and over again until ppl get sick and tired and wanted a change but once the changes takes place, they notice it's an endless same cycle...we need more dedicated politician~ unfortunately people get discouraged when others has more superb idea than them thus get jelly and keep on giving nonconstructive comments to drag them down which results in wasting of time most probably due to the fact that the suggester came from a different party~ thus you have to oppose every single thing they suggest~ this is human~ they don't think for themselves, they think for the group~ i wonder what happen to their own thoughts... probably sold their soul to the devil (c) kindly watch Reaper, in my opinion a mock of our life~ so sarcastic but very true~

geez~ why am i analyzing the politics? i hate politics~

thesaurus, are u a dinosaur?
bbyong~

seungie-fancy-seeing-u-here.gif

2011-06-13T10:29:00.000+09:00

why do i choose a hard song to sing?
actually that was the song i prepared to learn~
my mind went totally blank~ luckily i didn't choose hello hello cuz the rap part is not easy~
curious what i do for a living?
i hang around rainbows skipping from cloud to cloud for a living~ *bleh*

fancy seeing myself here...i could use another session to practice =.=; not my key~ my mind went totally blank when my teacher ask me to sing =.=;

mind, can you not went blank all the time?!
Caramel Macchiato, my lil' happiness~
^ mua awesome mind for spitting randomness without sense of failing. . .i like how caramel taste like. . .lil' happiness~

bbyong~

hello hello~

2011-06-12T12:46:00.000+09:00

listening to the same song all day without sense of failing~
mad. . .am so mad it's impossible to summarize what is happening in a nice way...
why is happiness casting me in the shadows~ ?
^ ~~totally stolen this line from a song~~~ an awesome emo song by Hodges called 'My side of the story'~ i dunno if i should listen to such emo song when i'm emo-ing~
but then i'ma stay ninja in the shadow creeping at myself~ OTL
really there's no one who cares. . .i'm not sayin like those bishes who craves for attention~
at times i felt so tired. . .
do not make me feel like i'm being abandoned~ left out~ and unwanted. . .
i really hate this feeling~
i might ignore everything walk away and never come back~

bye my world for now~

p/s: hello hello is ft. island's new song~ listen while i go emo in a corner~ i don't even like sitting in a corner~ fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

my life is too short. . .

2011-06-07T23:28:00.000+09:00

one morning when i woke up. . .
i had an urge to play deep sea banana boat~
last time i was coward and went for the shallow water banana boat where you can touch the ground when you fall into the water~
i let a lot of things drag me down although deep down inside i really wanted to go deep sea~
there was once i had a chance to float in a lake with safety jacket on~
it felt like i'm in space with untouchable ground~ felt rather mystical and fun...
since safety jacket is rather awesome, i shall go deep sea next time despite having 0 water survival skills~

i'm really afraid of height but i don't wanna shy away from amusement park rides, ever~
whoever sit next to me are bound to be deaf~ puhahaa~ despite the fail, i'm still proud of my courage and curiosity to at least try~

ah~ i really want to go to the amusement park now...and my deep sea banana boat, jet ski, wakeboard~ the weather is hot =.=;;;;;;;;

why is water, water?

2011-06-06T02:20:00.001+09:00

trivial stuff i once wonder~
those TVB dramas i was watching entertainingly when i was young...
i always wonder stuff like how did they film it? do they follow them day n night? must be dead tiring~
i really thought what i see was real~ lolz~ babo nevertheless~

^ yes, why can't ppl be dead frank? something i still don't understand~

if you want A, just say "I want A" don't tell me about B, C, D, E, F, G's story before telling me u want A~
real story:
there was once this dude want to tell me something. he did it very discretely asking me to go to a certain place before beating all around the bushes to get to the main point. then i straight away ask him "y don't just tell me there? does it make a difference?" the answer i get was "it wasn't appropriate"~ O.o; you coward~!

My mental condition is really the best cuz i spit out everything mindlessly (blog?)~ *puhahaa*

that's why i hate it a lot when ppl lie~ if you can't come, just say "i won't be there" don't tell me "i'll be there in 5 mins" then never show up cuz i'll assume you're dead or something~

^recently found a bunch of these comics~ they're so cute...just see it entertainingly...up to you whether to believe or not~ despite B's being ignorant to the world, self-centered beings, i still think we're awesome~ wohoo~ to the least, your opinion here are deemed invalid thus ignorable if you are not B~

bbyong

off nothingness~

2011-06-05T22:44:00.000+09:00

addicted to eyeliner group~
2nd known member of this unknown group i created a second ago is Jang Hyunseung...
3rd member. . .ironically his surname is also Jang...Jang Geunsuk~ lolz
sadly my surname is not Jang but i nearly become a Jang~ even if i don't have any memories of that person, that doesn't mean i should change my original surname, right?

The Cri Show
i nearly missed it... when i receive the call from my friend, it was around 5.45pm-ish and the show starts at 7.00pm~!!!
was kinda hesitating whether i should go or not since i live on the other side of Narnia~
anyway, i reach that place 1-2 mins before Jang Geunseuk came out~ am i a ninja?
glad i didn't miss it cuz this guy is amazing~
not to mention it's fucking awesome hearing him saying 'fucking' for about 100 times~ really no burden kinda person~
i particularly like his Europe photobook /video shoot~ (or whatever)
it's the freedom 'feel' that i always wanted. . . T.T

i think his dramas is the only drama i happen to watch whether it's coincidentally or by chance~
i have respect over this guy cuz he's not the type that will agree to take up any work offer he gets but to only take those that are challenging to him. . .the other person that reminds me of him is Oguri Shun~ we need more of these people. . .

and unlike what ppl like to assume, i don't watch Korean drama~ woops~ i like to be ninja and unpredictable~

mixtape-ing day and night. . .

v(=.=)v

2011-06-03T22:34:00.003+09:00

fearless~
over the years i've been concerning about stuff...it's just a useless act, wasting my time & energy
guess from now on i'ma be more cut throat maybe more ignorant than i already am~ just sayin'

track 14~
welcome to twitterverse~ @doublev89

i joined twitter in June too but in 09~
mainly to talk abt stuff i don't wanna share on fb every effin' day cuz ppl like to judge although i never ask for their opinion~ talking random crap and reading tablo's awesome #blonote~
and~! numblessly reporting abt the weather every now and then *cough*same goes to Lee Kikwang now*cough*

outside the damn box (c) absorbing things around me~
yup, you hear this all the time...supposedly from 'creative' people~
"let's think outside the box~" *bleh* i'm like, again? cut it off already~
this phrase has lost its 'uhm' since a long long time ago since very often than not, it just came out from ppl's mouth bearing no meaning at all~ it no longer has that appeal it used to have~
now it's time to roll~ since you're already outside the box~ kyakyaa. . .
inspiration from here~ why not think it as if the universe revolves around you?
ijou~ concluding my random absorbing things around me~

abusing language fail~
what have this lifestyle affect my mood in abusing language?
see, everything here sounded rather typical~ rant rant rant...
all i do nowadays in nothing but rant~ until i leave this damn blackhole, i'm going to rant sarcastically lyrical~

today's topic is 'tomorrow'
the term even preschooler know, the day after today is tomorrow~
either this person doesn't really understand the meaning of this word or 'tomorrow' somehow miraculously extend over an infinity period of time hallucinating that he was a hogwart graduate or he's just a plain liar~
let's see, the last time 'tomorrow' lasted were a little over 2 weeks~
like seriously? *tsk tsk tskk*

are you a 'guide' kinda person or otherwise?
do you believe in mystical dragon? ghost will appear at 2.22am in your room if you don't repost? you will die tonight if you don't reblog? and lotz more~
oops~ sorry bish, i've survived everything~
post really tells nothing about the title about something spinning in my head. . .

bbyong

off self-forgotten the word for it

2011-05-31T22:32:00.000+09:00

at times there are things that pisses me off~
i'm a lil' perfectionist (m'kay, a lot when i care)
and don't really mind putting in extra effort to correct le stuff~
but i cannot really stand ppl who couldn't see their own mistakes and demand a lot~
it's plain ridiculous~ i haven't start speaking yet~

looking at Yong Junhyung gonna make me anorexic~
he is so skinny O.o;
i lost one pound... *excuse me when i go get an ice cream from the freezer~*

*gains one pound after eating le delicious ice cream*
don't you hate people who doesn't gain weight after eating like a pig?
*tsk tsk* junseung~ *cough*

bbyong~

fiction in fiction in (fiction)

2011-05-28T22:51:00.000+09:00

bringing back one bad memory~

p/s: kindly do not droll over Kikwang's abs~
in this very venue...i was kind taken back by what happen that day
my friend had another friend who took her into the pc and since i'm going with her, i have no other place to go and had to wait outside the pc room =.=;;;;
i don't wanna look like some stalker girl who wait outside the pc room and couldn't get in (kinda shameful btw)~
hated that feeling so i brought a book, sat on a sofa (at that time there wasn't any effing human there) and read my book~ then suddenly Beast appear. . .walking pass my sofa and fangirls start to gaga over them~
i think it was Kikwang, Seobbie and Seungie (?!) not sure about Seungie cuz i couldn't recognize him that time~
Kwang sorta take a glance of me, sitting on the sofa reading a book while listening to mp3 not giving a damn like a boss~ but how did i know? i secretly ninja glance at beast while keeping calm =.=; i also saw Junhyung and Dudu walking on the other side =.=;
after Beast went into the room all those fangirls sat around the sofa ("bish, u make me look like chuu~ go away~!")
i really hated the feeling~

and whenever i saw the picture of them in deep blue suit, it reminds me of Seungie being abandoned... that's how i felt at times too~

i'm not blaming anyone on this but luckily i wasn't the one going into the PC room cuz i wouldn't want to make my friend feel bad because honestly, who wouldn't feel a thing having to sit outside? i'll be on a deep shit dilemma~

anyway, just me who had some abandonment issues~ that's why i like forever alone ppl~ they so precious~ in another word, forever being denied being my bias, Jang Hyunseung so precious~ =).
bbyong~

weee~ am i tumblr famous now?

2011-05-26T22:48:00.000+09:00

Or there's lotz of Junseung shippers?

nah~ i'm not tumblr famous but i like trolling in WAE U NO as an admin *insert endless puhahaa*
this however, is one of the highest notes i get from ma' normal tumblr which i'd like to keep ninja forever~
i'm planning to revive my other tumblr account that i've abandoned since creating it in the medieval ages awed by nice photos *0* right after i get my hands on EP1 or 2~ T.T

bbyong~

absorbing things around me~

2011-05-25T14:12:00.004+09:00

first up, listen to Jjangke song by Zico~
before you can fully understand the heck i'm talking about~
i'm coming to hate one thing i eat everyday without sense of failing
or when i feel the sick of it, will eventually head out to get more fattening food~ *yum~*
but let me be clear, i'm eating it not because i'm on a diet to get a jjang body *wonder if Jang Hyunseung will ever feel shameful saying this very line*~(that's why still fat~)
it's because i'm sick of going to lunch alone *feel sad even typing it*
sick~

i like those that are not perfect
very often than not, they also tend to be unreachable
thus i'm holding up my peace sign ¥(=.=)¥ every now and then with the word of encouragement from a fellow alien~
word of encouragement "아직지칠때가아닌것같다.외로움을탈여유도없어야지.평화..이 두손가락만있다면 난 힘들고외롭지않아...!!!"
you don't want to know what it means~ puhahaa~
i like orange i like green~ just sayin'

height of 170cm~!!!

^ not me~ not me~ not me~ ¥(=.=)¥
ain't mad...cuz i actually wanted to be like 155cm~ body is making a joke by being +10cm taller than my 'ideal' height~ arghhhhhhhh~ i don't actually find any convenience except when watching concert~ all my friends are short and i look like a giant~ and fat. . .
anyway, let's listen to Billionaire by Zico ft Hanhae~

all in for the wind~!

. . .

2011-05-25T01:20:00.002+09:00

*go read a book out loud*
fo' real~ (what have twitter & tumblr do to ma' life?)

bbyong~

when normal day being distrupted by a faulty alternator

2011-05-23T22:33:00.001+09:00

generally has no interest in car
i think my dream car is a small usable car that doesn't give me any problem~
it'll be a bonus if it's auto...but now i can drive manual car like a boss~
anyway today the car act up again *fuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*
luckily i try to start the car again~ if not i will *fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu* when i go back~
and luckily there's this mechanic shop near the place i park~ T.T
so i went to get some help~ *yokatta*

and so i'm happy again~

"Peace....with two fingers i won't be tired or lonely anymore"
why do you live in Narnia? *T.T*
and. . .what do you mean by lonely?!
*fiction*non-nayeh-fake-darling-jyana?!*-slash-fiction* (lolz~)
Jang Hyunseung and his 'peace sign'~ he is such a typical B~
typical B ppl are precious cuz i'm precious to myself~ *puhahaa + shameless*
normal ppl just won't get it~ (c) die die also want~

all in for the wind~
^i'm liking this sentence~ portray very well what i'm doing *heck i even had a 4 panel comic ready for it*~
but someday i'll think off something to replace the wind~ cuz in my mind wind represent freedom not the reality that i'm in~
btw, it's one line from BB's Ms. Liar~

bbyong~

to apply or not to apply~?

2011-05-21T23:46:00.001+09:00

idk~ ain't got much interest in writing stuff except for trolling~
do i have the guts to troll in front of strangers?
i particularly hate questions like "Tell me moar abt yourself"
troll like this~
"i'm here cuz i need a job, u mad?" *bleh*

fiction in fiction (ver 03)
a moment ago i wrote a post abt ending everything, concentrate in saving dondon, take my bags and fly which unfortunately couldn't find back the post~ maybe it was just a draft~
but to think back again, i will always support Beast and see them when they come~
only B2uty knows their awesomeness~

Dear Beast,

There goes, i'm not leaving you guys~

Yours truly, B2uty~

i will continue listening to the album entertainingly~

to apply or not to apply~ pt 2
idk~ i dun know how to read chinese to safe my life~
sorta like the idea but i don't really enjoy writing~
OTL anyone, help me make a decision~
but to leave is not a problem at all~

moar to come, kidari juseyo~

i just realize i bought the wrong stuff
(c) forever fail life when it comes to shopping
O.o; i pretty much had the idea what to get but when it comes to making the choice on the spot i'm completely lost~ it's always this or that~ i bought this instead of that~ i just realize it today OTL
there was once i bought a cream instead of a gel (i clearly saw the sampel of the gel but took the cream jar instead of the gel jar~) i had oily face so i can either use gel based stuff or serum~
niwayz, finally i bought Acerola serum *ish love despite the weird smell...is acerola fruit edible? cuz i wanna nomnom this awesome plant~*
and i just found out the construction worker threw away my dhc soap O.o;
dude, don't simply throw ma' things out~!!! =.=;
it was a pretty awesome soap that helps retain water~ it's forever gone...
i had to admit the soap was pretty ugly after a few times using it and kind looks 'throwable'
but dude, it's expensibuuuuuuuuu *sobz*
and dude, don't put the ladder on TOP's face~!!!!
my room is still empty and dirty =.=;
dude, when u coming back to finish the construction? *mad*

bbyong~

exposing the geek in me

2011-05-19T23:59:00.002+09:00

but since a long time ago
i like a geek by the name of Ninomiya Kazunari~
he is simple and admirable~
anyway~ Ouran Kouko live action *insert endless kyaaaaa~*
love this anime...

Fiction in fiction~
if i stand below the stage, will you look at me just like how you looked at me before?
wishful thought in fiction~

in need for some sleep after being double screwed by inconsiderate human who make me go all the way to an unknown place~ nuisance!
but i rarely will get lost in a place i never set foot on~ *proud proud* all i need is google maps~ i can refer to the map, jot down some points like certain buildings in that area and find my way~
but still, i remember hating geography~ what did i even learn in that class?

bbyong

Complex

2011-05-16T18:46:00.007+09:00

“My eyes are my complex. I think they’re ugly (without eyeliners)” Prince Jang
^ ~~told you he's addicted to eyeliner...lolz~~
Jang Hyunseung, you have to be kidding me~!
but then everyone has their own perception towards their complex although may sound rather absurd to other people hearing it...
like girls will always think they look fat~ it's what they feel thus your argument and opinion is invalid~
i saw him without makeup before...kekee ~

na complex~
it's my right eye~ but fixed
why i did it? you won't understand the hidden complex of having mismatch eyes when you smile and captured in photos~!

why do you exist~?!

my wish came true~

fiction and fact album
Beast, y u maek my heart weak?!
particularly the intro of fiction (orchestra version) T.T
sounded like disney fairytales... Uwaaaaah *cries*
sorta reminds me of Shakespeare (c) self shock why do i remember high school literature?
^ something like as long as ppl read the poem, that person is alive
in this song, it's like as long as the guy continue writing about their story, it will never end~
so lovely~ but if that girl is heartless, she won't care how much you cling to it~
sometimes, letting go is even lovelier cuz other girls will love you even more *wink wink* Beast *cough*
Dudu, awesome as always~ Jang Hyunseung's falsetto, stop breaking my artificial heart~ T.T their magnae, stop being so emo, their junhyung stop killing people with your swag, their kikwang stop being so busy, their yangyo stop doubting yourself T.T
Beast, thank you~ ^^

bbyong~

what was that again?

2011-05-15T16:40:00.005+09:00

i hate this weather~
ii nalshi nomu shiro~

Ah~ a hidden complex being exposed~ did his stylist saw a comment that he looks nnamjappoi without bangs? (c) comment by his truly. . .~~((c)) self rank~~~
bangs is an unknown complex of mine...

Ah~ the shape that i love ft. on Zico, the boy that hates jjangke~

Ah~ my sense of humor...is rather cold in Y U NO~ u mad?

finally...it's about to start raining~
bbyong...~~when will the time comes when i have a free trip?~~ rather than wanting a free trip, work for it (c) note to self~

. . .

2011-05-13T00:07:00.000+09:00

seriously, can you not make my life easier?
last wednesday you told me will pass it to me 'tomorrow'
fast forward 8 days later you told me will pass it to me 'this afternoon'
i assume in your dictionary those words has a light year effect huh?

lying may just be another way to get away in your life,
but you insulted my trust~
i'm even more dumb to believe the words of a constant liar~ FYFL~!

more to come. . .kidari juseyo~

sidetrack~
i'm an admin for one 'wae u no' tumblr site~!!! *enjoy trolling*
if not i will suffer brain freeze for the longest time ever. . .
i'm not tumblr famous tho and aren't like some who keep on craving for attention~
just doing whatever i want. . .

that's why can't really stand a certain wannabie who think the stuff they want to do is so great but forever fail to see that copying something won't take them far. . .
it's like a sin not to preach for originality in this age of the world~
and without fail thinks that it's a big idea resulting a major slam from bigger player~
i bet they must be thinking "fuuuuuuuu~ which corner did you emerge from?"
am happy to see similar stuff mushrooming around town~ *will continue watching entertainingly* (self admit pure evil~ but hey, at least i didn't lie about it~)
^ above is a rant written in an experimental language abusing exercise (c) like making things up~

we can live in our own imagination, but please don't involve other people's life.
they do not live your life~
the example of 'u ain't in the game, u're just a cheerleader' (c) quotes is useful altho it's from a song~ ( (c) ) *copyright within a copyright, copy-ception~* love songwriter who abuses language~

plain old' thing is so boring and most of the time abused so many times. . .
let's become a creator~ this is forever relevant~

gokigenyou~

making decision. . .

2011-05-09T22:30:00.000+09:00

ain't hard. . . ~
flip the coin and be at ease~
i'm a Libra. . .free spirited is in the genes~
one day i'm gonna talk from day one until day 290~
fuuuuuuuuuuuuu~ wasted a lot of time where i should be learning something exciting that i like
not your damn data entry and delayed salary~ seriously, even the law says you should be paid no later than 7th of every month~ look at the date today~

bbyong...

i'm not dead

2011-04-30T18:19:00.000+09:00

and he's alive~

bc i've already said unless you're BEAST (or even better, Jang Hyunseung), you'll never know which space he mysteriously went to~
naneun never know~

over the past week been doing something i dreadfully hate~
i think unless there's something like this that i had to do, i think i won't ever have any thoughts of doing this because i live with 'die die genes' (c) like making things up~

you'll never know what is that~ *tsk tskk*

Life is full with Block B~ (c) like making things up
still have to watch the drama of a wannabie every now and then~ oh~ FML...
"do u wanna be? do u wanna be?" (erm, no~ i wanna escape~)
i keep on having dreams running away from someone and i very entertainingly run away in an unconventional way with logical sense trying to trick whoever chasing me~ *ish proud~ works in real life too~ i literally ran away from stalker twice with this kind of ninja sense~*
like a few days ago i had a dream abt running away in a mall from the top floor (i also remember i saw Yoon Doojoon somewhere *wae u troll in my dream?*)...and after a few floors down, i suddenly get logical and run back upstairs cuz the chaser will assume that i'll be going down, right? puhahaaa~ i ran away very entertainingly tho~ it was a nice 'action' dream. . .

artsy fartsy~
recently i found out that my grandma love porcelain bowls, plates and glass cups... we have tonnes in the home~ O.o; what a unique hobby~
and i want a compact DSLR...but the one i've been eying for doesn't have a viewfinder...what is life if your compact DSLR doesn't have a viewfinder??? but i don't want a bulky one cuz it's just a pain in the ~~ass~~ biceps~

i have ran out of random idea...o.O; not healthy~
bye~

documentaries~

2011-04-20T22:04:00.000+09:00

how i love em~
i can spend the whole day sitting in front of the tv watching documentaries~
i need a doctor~~~ fav genre are those weird stuff, architecture, serial killers & crime related~
watch some documentaries now~ enjoy enriching your brains~*tsk tskk*

thinking back. . .
he could have be the forever no.1~ O.O;
partly because i like ~~forever alone~~ ppl that has the attitude quite like mine~
but since forever no.1 place has been taken, it's impossible to change~
my mind told me not to change. . .
i shall continue admiring his awesomeness from a far far distance~
forever denying him from being my bias~
*shrug* Jang Hyunseung is NOT my bias *denial*

begging won't help. . .

*wowoo~ my fav shirt~*
being depressed don't have any effect on me. . .

attempting to posses me is basically powerless~

sweating profusely after performance also won't do anything~

asking Yong Junhyung to beg on behalf is kinda pointless~

basically i'm a heartless person~
hiding under the disguise of a pointless argument is a pic spam~ wae so serious?

bye~

Jang Hyunseung. . .

2011-04-20T21:32:00.000+09:00

where are you~? eodi eyo~? doko desuka~?
unless you're a member of Beast or his family member, you will never know what happen to him~
niga never know what happen to your oppa~ *owh... sad~ btw, he's not my oppa~ owh, double the sad...nuna will forever deny you the no.1 spot* Seungie: OTL *puhahaaa*

"I'm trapped in this pic wondering why water is water" Seungie...

forever trapped in this blog... and his forever relevant quotes~

besides Dudu's tweet tweet asking us not to worry about this human, we have no idea what happen to Seungie... probably got hurt~ typical B...

and i just found out there's a Block B member who used to train as Beast~ but got hurt and had to quit...one can imagine how hard they trained~ envy envy...

i wish people will stop being spoon fed and teacher should stop feeding...most of the ppl nowadays like to ask without doing much self discovery~

recently i can see stars from my bed *0* this is lifeeee~ but soon will be caged once they put the grill T.T damn the existence of thief~ but stars is very pretty *0*

Jang Hyunseung,

eat some ice cream~ =).

Cole dun-wanna-be-a nuna

goodbam and bbyong~ x).

Apreciation: Deprived

2011-04-17T04:03:00.002+09:00

mind numbing~
typing mindlessly into the wee hours~
my mind keep on telling me it's possible to finish everything (hate this mind cuz it doesn't care much~ like in this case, doesn't concern if i can or not but to come to a conclusion it can be done)
*so don't understand self*
looking at other ppl getting busy, usually it's really some sort of small yet big stuff (wat~? mind has been clogged =.=;) but the stuff i usually get busy with is some painstakingly *fuuuuuuuuu* and forever alone (not talking abt boyfriend stuff but really in absolute solitude~) *double the fuuuuuu*

what is life, i need some~

even if i finish everything on time, i will still get feedback for the slightest thing ever... this no good~ that not accurate, bla and ha~ but i ain't mad... ppl can't see a bigger picture... 10 mistakes is better than grammar/ word usage / etc etc mistakes in every efffing other line~ O.o;

grammar,what is it? a place in dreamland?
don't effing talk to me about GRAMMAR~ right until now i have no idea what is verb and adjective~ O.o; u, mad? i think i learn from everywhere but text book~ never text book~ i never like english lesson anyway~ puhahaa... but english is important~ watch more survivor (just something i so wanna watch but can't until probably next friday~ O.O; i need a life)

think about it. you think babies know what the heck is grammar when they learn to talk? fuuuuuuu~

recently love 'When I'm Gone'~ i wish Simple Plan will come back with some track about Liar...then i can play it everyday since i don't think anyone know japanese~ and although I like the 'Stupid Liar, Liar Liar Lah~' (and wish i can play it on forever loop) but then Stupid Liar is not a song for liar~ it's a love song? i think~

now i cannot say i hate damn love song cuz VIP all around the world will be using it~ gosh~ i hate love song first~ actually not really hate... it's just that i prefer the uniqueness of songs with great ideas~ One Ok Rock and Simple Plan~ puhahaa~ My Love~

i wanna watch Block B's debut performance~ life neun mwo kayo? something u can eat?
despite ranting abt being tired i can mindlessly type all this~ Carpe Diem~

die die~ fuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

many ppl know how to sing. . .

2011-04-15T22:50:00.000+09:00

so i've decided to rap instead~
^puhahaa~
recently i've been listening back to KAT-TUN's song~
and i know the raps~ *proud*
~~feel so fly like Yong Junhyung~~~~~ oh lalalalalala~~~

i wonder if ppl know there's a popular Japanese Joker~
people, don't fight over which Joker is better yo~
they're all awesome in their own way~

so now we have. . .

American Joker

Japanese Joker @ Tanaka Koki, rapper of KAT-TUN

Korean Joker @ Yong Junhyung, rapper of Beast~

bye~

영원히 혼자

2011-04-14T16:56:00.000+09:00

forever alone day~

there's an official forever alone day in Korea called Black Day which is today~ lolz
too bad i don't know where i can find jajjangmyun~
so let's look at jajjangmyun hair~

nomnomm~

there was once i updated my fb status with 'forever alone'~ and ppl tend to view it very pessimistically or seeing it as being 'desperate'~
obviously they don't tumblr~ thus cannot get my sense of humor~
my glass is always half full~ i only rant but never really emo. . .
~~*cough*and Jang Hyunseung is the standard*cough*~~

i think it's easier to bury myself under the ground than anything~
what am i to talk about standard~

Happy Forever Alone Day~

Happy~? puhahaa~

i didn't meet you for no reason. . .

2011-04-13T22:02:00.001+09:00

my antidote~
or you didn't meet me for no reason (puhahaa~ forever with baseless confidence)

oh, hi Seungie (pt ???)~
justification: for the sake of art. . .

^ my antidote~? *puhahaa* or antibiotic?
nah~ he is a human. . .not a prescription. . .

for the 3 million times, i'm ranting for a laptop so i can play with photoshop~

bye~

. . .

2011-04-10T22:33:00.001+09:00

Keep calm and listen to 짱개 song~
"싫어 싫어 싫어~"
so soulfully cute. . .

^ official 'keep calm' pose in this lil' small universe of mine

Y U NO . . .
. . .PAY MEH? HAS NO MONIES GO PLAY PLAY~ NO GOOD FOR MEH BRAIN STUCKING IN A FOREBER ARONE PRACE~ WAE NO MAEK MEH LIFE EASIER?

Forever Alone
Matt is forever alone cuz that poor guy got eliminated again. . .
Simple Moral of the Story:- Never ever trust people who LIE to you. . .
do not tell me things you don't mean, i might trust you!!! fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu *mad but have to keep calm*
from hereafter, i'ma just look out the window and wonder if someone is consuming ice cream on a rainbow~ U MAD?

if i don't keep calm someone might get killed in my mind. . .
the one thing that i don't want to think too much about, why do you have to make me think about it~? =.=; *keep calm-ing*

your forehead. . .

2011-04-08T16:05:00.002+09:00

kindly refer last post . . .
finally i saw it~

what is airrrrr~ i need some. . .
geez~ i never knew he look this mean~ namja-ppoi with forehead and well defined eye brows~
look like a fighter~

see people~ jang hyunseung is not in any way pretty~ pls don't call him a goddess anymore~

tonari no totoro~ totoro~ *heart*
^ Sakurai Sho's uber cute drawing... awwwww~ how simple~

bye~

english, i'm amuse

2011-04-06T22:40:00.000+09:00

no, not yangyo's

kindly refer to the tag~
and Son Dongja is such a troll. . .but it's amusing too~

싫어 싫어 싫어~

what the heck is 짱개? Wae there's a song for it~ all i heard is name of dishes and they hate 짱개

kono bashoe wa 싫어 싫어 싫어~

confusion. . .

2011-04-05T22:31:00.001+09:00

i used to get confuse between Junhyung and Hyunseung. . .
and i think they are the same person~
pardon me but they don't quite look like this when i was starting to recognize their faces. . .

warning: very ignorant person~
although i do listen to their songs but that doesn't mean i'll be watching the PV or performance~
i remember watching the PV once and think Junhyung look scary and that Junhyung and Yoseob are the same person. . .so Yoseob look scary as well~? lol~

Hyunseung was very quiet in their show~ ~~it wasn't until the vid my friend showed me that i felt bad myself~ i really didn't notice him that much although~~ his dance moves was uber awesome...

and when i notice them, this is how they look like. . .

right? how not to get confused with this two although one sing and the other rap~
and they have dancer's vibes all around them~~~~~

i find myself watching their practice vid more than performance vid. . .
i'm not much on the visual side... puhahaa~ *self-fanning*
but i do admire his hair since June 26, 2010~ and eyeliner *0*~
however, talent is more important~ his personality and attitude is very admirable too~ (do i like ignorant ppl? YES~ u jelly? whether u're jelly or peanut butter, it's none of my business~)

and Hyunseung like to roam around the dorm all the time. . .
*cough*~~gives me the perception of being forever alone~~*cough*
so one day i typed Hyunseung in youtube out of curiosity~
and. . .i found Junseung & tumblr. . . x).

anyway... just enjoy my blondie pic spam~
!!! : Junseung to me is like the identity-mixed-up story. . .actually i don't know what i'm trying to tell~ guess i just wanted to do a blondie pic spam~

i only had. . . one Junhyung blond pic~ or i only remember to select one?

for the sake of slim headband. . .my love. . .
(i mean headbands~)

not quite blond but headband...and jajjangmyun hair~

Malaysia day 01~

Malaysia day 2. . .
strangely he didn't draw eyeliner~

forever stubborn... this is how they look like now~ like twins~

i give chuu half heart~
^ see why i say his personality is admirable? lolz something like at least accept half of it with my free hand-kinda-thingy~

i didn't get half heart... i just got a random 'U'~ *still wanna hug this guy and say thank you* but i don't wanna get flying bricks from his fangirls... so i should think of another way to thank him~

Hyunseung ah,

Thank you ^3^

Cole ~~nuna~~~

forever denying him from becoming my beast bias~ forever in denial~ *shrug*

how i wish i can walk around and see none-seafood blond people with jajjangmyun hair. *0*
this country is so hot... i'm so tanned~ i should avoid the light n bury myself under the ground (?!!) for~~ever~~ until i feel like coming out from the ground. . .zombie. . .lolz

i heard there's possibility to dig a tunnel from a spoon in the prison~ with perseverance, anything is possible...so if i insist on this, someday i will get to hug jang hyunseung n thank him like how i wanted~ *shameless* i don't think i will ever see him again. . .if i do, i'll be standing from a far distance...oh~ the reality. . .burying myself under the ground seems easier. . .

i know this sound uber strange but. . .i never saw your forehead~ lol and i know you have happy-go-lucky eyebrow (totally self-coined)~ happy-go-lucky refers to barely-there type of brows~

development. . .
are surrounded by lrt development on a daily basis and the usual annoyance of being stuck in the traffic jam thus the lost of precious time. . .precious sleep time~
if human realize that it actually cost them more being stuck in the jam, then they would destroy the toll booth~ or have other alternative method to pay... i would rather pay a monthly toll bill than being stuck in the jam for 2.5 hours everyday~

i wish people will be less brainless by acting smart and cut queues (especially in the touch n go lane) and i found a way to bypass their stupidity~normally it would take around 20-30 minutes entertaining stupidity~ but now it took a max of 5 minute to pass the toll booth~ no amount of PSA or messages would en-light these ppl for as their vision is just that short~ i'm not asking people to be a good driver~ but really, pls don't show others that you're that dumb and most important taking away other ppl's precious time to entertain your stupidity

1. other would have to make way for you;- delay for others behind the original lane
2. confusing ppl and follow your lane;- back to no.1~ + more delay for ppl behind. . .

in conclusion, touch n go is even slower than cash lane~ and what's more amusing is people with no smart tag going into the wrong lane. . .u kidding? do you not have eyes?

and just drive for godsake. . .you can always get to your lane in front~ you don't really have to get to the fast lane right after the toll~ for my mentality sake, pls drive ahead~

ijou~ told cha' this is a place to rant. . .and mini Seungie blond pic shrine? now what's left is piccus~ move on. . .

~*~ wanderer by nature ~*~

it feels like trainee waiting to debut~

nothing much~

まだ世間しらずなガキです pt II

i still haven't fallen for you

Lee Hongki's voice is dayum amazing~

. . .

katalk me~

pending, pending, pending. . .

i'ma gonna name it...

quote geek~

まだ世間しらずなガキです

off the undying do or die spirit

seriously Kim Jaejoong~!

EastSea ya~

December is all about....

namuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

if you only had one year to live~

the writer who lost her purpose (c) yong jun hyung...

your voice...

hello my hamster~

kyaaa~ guess i'm not going~

mainstream media. . .

are you sad?

when i can't sleep...

ありえない~

hep hap~

internet decided to fail on me~

hello, i'm the cutest baby ever

. . .

♫♪ Tic Toc Tic Toc Micheogeonda Charming Eye ♪♫

everyday i'm ninja-ing~

they are back. . .

say hello. . .

my phone has a ninja screen

maldo andwae~

can u smile on forever reloop~

Can U Smile

dance bug all around~

Speaking 2 languages in a sentence because you're a multicultural bastard

when there's nothing to do

현승아 행복하세요

when there's nothing to do

i navigate the Junseung ship (pt 02)

where are you~?

i'm gonna reveal the ugly name. . .

the skeleton inside me screaming to come out turning into ashes

wae no study japanese deligently?!

hi hamster~

acrophobia

this or that?

of this and that. . .

it's 5am~

u jelly?

stop being grumpy~

maware maware merry go round~

why do you live in Narnia ver forever-and-ever-unanswered-Q

*delusional*

why all of a sudden i'm tweet tweet-ing in korean?

seeing oppa on TV~

Goodbye Happiness~

for those who stumble upon this blog looking for Jang Hyunseung's pic

what on earth~?!

stuff that are suppose to happen ain't happening

5 more weeks~

how do i unfollow myself?

forever slow, do we live in a hole

people who lives in their own world

seungie-fancy-seeing-u-here.gif

hello hello~

my life is too short. . .

why is water, water?

off nothingness~

v(=.=)v

off self-*forgotten the word for it*

fiction in fiction in (fiction)

weee~ am i tumblr famous now?

absorbing things around me~

. . .

when normal day being distrupted by a faulty alternator

~~ wanderer by nature ~~

delusional

off self-forgotten the word for it